Seduce Me one shot book

💚Avoidance💚

I put Mika, but you can imagine your name.

Trigger warning for mentions of mental health and abuse. My head cannon is that the time David smacks Mika isn't the first time he has laid hands on her. He's a dick. So yeah, read at your own risk. There is also fluff if you need a TW for that. 

Mika's POV

The incubi have been living with me for about 6 months. I have started online college classes, and the boys have been one by one getting jobs. Living with them after Diana left us alone has been surprisingly easy. There is one exception. I'm in love with Sam. The middle child of the brothers has caught my heart, and I see a side to him that proves he isn't the brute everyone thinks of. Damien knows of my feelings, I'm sure. We haven't talked about it, though. 

Recently, Sam and I have been avoiding each other. I know why I'm avoiding him, but why the hell is he avoiding me? Did I do something wrong? Does he know how I feel and is disgusted? I've tried to convince myself it doesn't matter. That I don't care. But I do, more than anything. I want to be his, I want to tell him how I feel. But how would I do that? He deserves someone who is incredible and strong, whereas I'm a simple plain human. A fragile one at that. 

Nightmares were common for me, especially since leaving my parents' house. I didn't realize how much my father put me through until I left. That happens to manifest in my dreams, like right now. 

"Mika, look me in the eyes. Look at me when I'm talking to you, young lady." he snarled, grabbing my shoulder.

I looked at him and watched as his eyes softened at the severity of my black eye. "I won't do it again." he promised, but I knew better.

My dream flashed to a week later. "Mika, did you not study for this?" I put my hands up in defense as he yanks my hair.

My nightmares were ruthless, showing me the worst moments of my childhood followed by him promising to never hurt me. It felt like whiplash, even in my dream world. As it continues to show my father's violence, I suddenly woke up to the sound of knocking on my door. "Doofus, you up? Foods ready."

I shot up, gasping, feeling the effects of my nightmare. I took a breath, preventing a panic attack. "Mika, did you hear me?"

My breath hitched at the sound of his voice, remembering how I woke up. "Yeah, I'll be down in a minute. Thanks" I heard him walk away.

I began wiping the tears off my face, recovering from the nightmare and Sam's voice. I got dressed and threw my hair up and joined the incubi in the dining room. Damien looked at me in worry, only getting a small smile in response. "How was your nap, miss?" James asked, genuine curiosity obvious in his voice.

"I slept good, thanks." I lied, not wanting to worry the boys.

We all began to eat, the boys including me in their conversation as always. I found myself spacing out quite a bit, but I was still able to keep up. Sam glanced my way a couple times in worry, but I just smiled at him and attempted to snap out of it. We all finished and disbanded. I realized Sam hadn't left yet and panicked. I quickly began to leave without making eye contact. He didn't want to talk to me, I shouldn't push it. That was until I heard his deep, husky voice. "Mika, let's talk."

I froze. What did he need to talk about? Endless possibilities ran through my mind before I turned around, finally making eye contact with the handsome incubus. He gestured to the door before walking out, me following behind. I followed him until we reached a good 30 feet from the mansion, sitting on the ground. I gulped, worried about what he needed to say. We sat in silence, only hearing the sounds of nature. "Mika, did..fuck. I uh... Why have you been avoiding me?" He asked, hesitantly.

I looked at him, seeing him look down, shame in his eyes. "I can't tell you Sam, I can't" I was cut off.

"Fuck that Mika, you know you can tell me. Is it something I did? I-"

"Nonono, Sam it's nothing you did. Not intentionally anyways," I trailed off, looking back down.

Sam raised an eyebrow. "Not intentionally? What the hell does that mean?"

I sighed, playing with my bracelet. I needed to tell him. "You..." I felt my chest tighten, I needed to do this.

I took a deep breath, looking away from his eyes. "I've been through some shit Sam, and the people who hurt me the most are the people I cared about and the ones who were supposed to care about me." I felt Sam's gaze, but I continued to look at the grass. "I care about all of you, and I don't know, I guess it's some kind of trauma response?" I let out a sad laugh.

"But you didn't shut my brothers out, just m-"

"Because it's different with you, Sam!" I interrupted, finally making eye contact despite the tears running down my face. "I love them like brothers, but it's different with you. You could hurt me, and I don't mean physically. I know you wouldn't do that, which makes it scarier. I don't want to delude myself into thinking that you could ever feel the same, you deserve the world. Someone who could give you the world. That's not me, I bring trouble everywhere I go, I-" I was cut off by Sam smashing his lips into mine.

I hesitated before timidly kissing him back. He slowed the kiss down before pulling away, keeping his hands on my cheeks with a serious look in his eyes. "Mika, you have no idea what you do to me. I don't deserve the world. I don't deserve you, but you are all I think about."

I stared wide eyed, feeling the blush on my cheeks grow darker. "I didn't think you felt the same, I..." I could barely get the words out.

Sam smiled, brushing the hair out of my face. "I love you, Mika."

I smiled and kissed him again. "I love you too."