Seduce Me one shot book

🩵Wanted to be🩵

TW Angst and unrequited love

Matthew had it all planned out.

He wasn't always great at planning, at least not in a very organized fashion. He remembered the time he was in charge of helping his mother plan a party...he wasn't all that helpful. The decorations were a mess, and no one had proper coordinates of where everything was supposed to go.

After that experience, no one really asked him to be in charge of planning, even when arriving in the human world. He'd help bake treats and cook food for parties his brothers and Mika have thrown, but James usually took care of the actual planning aspect.

This is important, though, Matthew thought to himself as he looked at the different items in his room. It included a purple plushie, some chocolates, and a bouquet of Mika's favorite flowers. He'd repeated his confession speech again and again.

When Matthew met Mika...it felt like he'd realized what he'd been missing. In the demon world, he always felt incomplete. Not just because he was treated like a child, but because something was missing. Something he'd never had before.

Even after coming to the human world, he always knew there was something more for him out there.

And when he met Mika, everything seemed to click. It was cheesy, but he felt like she held the other part of his heart. He'd never felt more complete than when they were hanging out, playing video games or baking. The sound of her triumphant laughter when she'd kick his ass at COD was a sound he hoped to hear again and again. The way her eyes would light up each time he'd surprise her with her favorite snacks was a sight he hoped to see again and again.

He'd managed to keep his feelings a secret from his brothers, even Damien. How he'd managed to keep it to himself for so long, he'll never be sure. It took many hours of blasting music in his earbuds so his thoughts were inaudible to the mind reading brother. It took many fake smiles when Mika would go on dates with people she met through work or college, though none of them stuck around. Not like any of them would ever be good enough for her.

She deserved the world.

Matthew took a deep breath. I can do this. I just need to tell her the truth.

His mind was filled with uncertainty, worry, but also excitement for the possibilities ahead. The worst she can say is no, right?

Though, even if that is the worst thing she can do, Matthew's stomach twisted at the idea.

He shook it off quickly, he needed to do this. Even if she didn't reciprocate, he wouldn't want to go forever thinking 'what if.'

Finding his resolve, Matthew began picking up the different items he'd gotten for her. Maybe he'd gone a bit overboard...oh well. After some careful adjusting, he was able to carry everything and still open the door to his room. He began carefully walking downstairs into the lobby, which was pretty quiet. It was nothing out of the usual for this time of the evening.

What was unusual was that Mika wasn't in any of her usual spots. First, he checked the living room, where Sam and Damien were sitting, but not Mika. He checked the study next, which was empty. He checked the library, leading him to find Erik. The last place he checked was her room, but there was no answer when he knocked.

He knew she hadn't left the mansion either, where was she???

There was one last place he could check, though. He began making his way to the backdoor, his stomach fluttering. She had to be here! This is it, it's time. Don't screw this up.

He opened the door, causing a quiet creaking noise to quietly reverberate in the air. The chilly wind caused a brief shiver to run down Matthew's spine as he stepped outside. He began looking around the yard for her.

Come on, where is she? She couldn't have gone too far-

Matthew's heart lurched in his throat when he finally saw her.

But it wasn't the usual feeling he got when his eyes landed on her. He was used to the ache in his chest, the squeezing of his heart every time he caught an unexpected glimpse of her.

But this time, it was painful.

It felt like someone had stomped on his chest.

Because she wasn't alone.

...James...

Their lips were interlocked in a passionate kiss, his hands pressing the small of her back as hers tangled in his messy black hair. They were both so in the moment that they didn't even notice Matthew.

...he'd been too late.

Of course it was James she'd chosen. He'd always been the 'better' option, according to everyone in the abyssal plains.

He was frozen for a moment, watching as his oldest brother held and kissed the women he loved. It was surreal. A part of him expected to be rejected, but...

Silently, and as quickly as possible, Matthew rushed inside. He needed out, he needed away. He couldn't bear to see another minute of this. He scrambled around his room, quickly trying to put away his gifts for her before Damien could see.

He felt mortified, he felt heartbroken. He felt like the missing piece of his heart he was so close to getting was torn away from him.

James could treat her amazingly.

...but so could Matthew...

He couldn't help his jealousy. His regret. He wanted in that moment nothing more than to go back in time. What if he'd told her sooner? Would she still have chosen James over her?

Would he ever be her choice, in any universe?

Is he destined to be in the shadow of his eldest brother? In all aspects of his life?

A part of him knew he couldn't be mad at James. He deserved happiness, and so did Mika. But fuck, that didn't make it any less painful.

He wanted to be the one she kissed.

He wanted to be the one she held.

He wanted to be the one she loved.

He wanted to be the one.

But it was always James. It will always be James.