I opened his diary. Why is my heart beating fast? Am I excited? It's weird that Drake is keeping a diary. He's not that type or maybe...just maybe...this is his side that I don't know. The first page was blank. I curiously opened the next page. To my surprise it doesn't start with the typical introduction of "dear diary..." I began to read. The first entry was dated October 15, 2002.
Today is Addie's 18th birthday. It's one of the best days of her life. Sadly, her parents are not here to see her. I know they're watching from where they are now. I saw Addie a while ago. When she appeared from the staircase...she took my breath away, like she always does. She's so beautiful. She wears a champagne colored ball gown. The details of her gown were so finely made. It exposes her collar bones...it has no sleeves. According to what I heard, it's a tube dress. Her hair was on big curls and tied up. Her bangs were side swept. She wears a light make up. With make or not she's still beautiful. My dad took her hand. I forgot. She's wearing a small tiara. She always dreamt of being a princess. So I gave her a tiara. I bought it from a fancy store hahaha. She doesn't know that.
As the emcee does her job, I can't help but stare at her. She's so beautiful. I think I said that earlier. Anyway, dad let go of her when I came in the scene. I can't wait to hold her hand tonight. She looked at me. My heart just melt. She hit me because I lied. I told her that she looks funny with the dress and that it doesn't look good at her. It's because I don't know how to tell her that she's gorgeous. I'm scared she might disgust me. I took her hand. I led her towards the beautifully arranged couch. The emcee started the program or ceremony for debutant. She looks amazing. There were 18 girls who gave her dedications and gifts. They mentioned why they give her such kind of gifts. Then comes the 18 roses. This is the part where 18 men will dance with her. The first and last dance were memorable. I was her first dance. The last one was dad.
I held her hand. It is still soft as ever. I held her waist. Her smile was genuine. Her dimples were very evident. I told her she looks beautiful but she just laughed at my statement because she always knew that I am always making fun of her. If I can only dance with her all night...the next guy's turn. I slowly let go of her hand. Man after man take turns to dance her. The last one was my dad. I saw how she look at my dad. She was crying softly. I saw how she wiped her tears. Maybe she remembers her dad. Maybe she dreamt of her dad giving her that dance.
After the party, I stayed in her room. I checked out her gifts. She's excited to open each box. She didn't remove her tiara nor change her dress. She slouched herself in the bed while I sat on the davenport in her room. She received a watch, teddy bears, undies, books, jewelries and more. She asked me what's my gift for her and I simply say that it's only the tiara. She scoffed. Well in fact, I have a gift for her. It's in my pocket. But I didn't give her because she might not like it since she received some bracelets also. I told her she has too many gifts already and she's still asking for some more. She throw a pillow at me. I wanted to tell her how beautiful she is and how she made me fall for her even more...
My tears just fell down. How come I didn't know? Am I numb? I wanted to read every entry but my eyes were so teary already. I browsed some of the entries. I read an entry from March 28, 2004.
It's my 20th birthday and graduation day too. It feels great to be able to finally finish college and look for a job. I may have not been able to make it to Magna Cum Laude just like Addie...still I was able to finish college. I am so glad that my average was able to make it to Cum Laude. I lost with Addie. Grrrr. She gave me a necklace. It has a cross pendant. She said that it's for luck, guidance and protection. I've worn it. She came up to stage with mom and dad. She's like a member of the family. I wonder how we are like in the next few months. Addie wants to be a doctor so badly but the money left for her in the bank is not enough. She's really feeling bad about it. Before graduation, she took already her entrance exam for med school. Of course she passed. But her disappointment is her finance. Even if she's able to pass the exam and meet the requirements for scholarship, still her financial capacity is not enough. I pity her. She really want it so badly. I just comforted her and told her to just focus on her upcoming board exam. I hope she will. Me, I hope one day I can open up a restaurant...or perhaps a bar...but I think restaurant is a great idea. I always dreamt of cooking a special meal for her. I hope I can work in a hotel or well-known restaurant someday.
