the idea of having sex both scares and intrigues me.
like, i want it badly, too badly.
because i was groomed and made a plaything by those i thought were my
friends,
role models,
partners.
but i was wrong.
and it's scary to think of a dick anywhere near me.
but still, i sexualize myself over and over again.
cuz i just want validation
and to be loved
and held
and cherished.
is that so much to ask for?
