sometimes i get the urge to just punch my heart.
right in the middle.
i want to feel the ventricles twitch
and watch as it stutters in my chest
as i am left breathless
because of my own destructive actions.
will this numb the pain? i wonder
because unrequited love is a stupid bitch
and i hate her.
it hurts my heart
maybe even more than a punch to my guts
to beat so hard and pour my passion
into a boy who will
never
love me.
no matter how much i want him to,
i can hope and pray
to a god that isn't there for me.
they stopped listening to me long ago
so i turned my back on them.
and look where it got me
