i can't run long distance for shit.
so i've always said
"my endurance is bad"
when really it isn't
because of all the
defense mechanisms
i've developed over the years
and all the
hammering
hammering
hammering
that's happened to me.
and all the
suffering
in the wake of a hollow phrase,
"it'll get better"
but fuck you cuz
my world was fucking ending
and the only thing you had to say to me was
"it'll be okay."
you didn't care as much as you claimed
and while you left to drink until the sun came up
i was babysat by expectation
and suffocated by the nasty glares.
but all i could do was sit and be good
because otherwise i'm evicted from your life.
