i tend to get upset
over stupid things.
like the boys and girls i want
who don't want me,
and my inability
to not be annoying,
and the way "roller"
is spelled with an "er"
and not an "ar."
there are more complex things in the world
and, god,
i wish i was one of them.
because today was
an emotional rollercoaster
of feelings and delicate crying
in a single-person bathroom as girls walked up and down the hallways
and i could hear their carefree talk.
because they weren't crying over a boy
who certainly wasn't crying over them.
but i was.
and i feel the shame.
