Back to You

Ethan

I have so many things going through my mind at the moment, confusion, anger, heartbreak, I don't know what to feel. I have just seen Mia, the girl who stole my heart and left with no explanation and what does she do, she runs. I can't move, my legs won't work. I see Jake making his way to the bar where Mia once stood. She hasn't changed much, her hair might be a little longer but she had it pulled into the ponytail so it was hard to tell, her eyes didn't look as bright as they once did. She looked tired. She looked shocked to see me standing in front of her. But then she ran.

Alex comes up beside me "You alright man?" I can't speak, I just look at him. How do I even answer that. Am I alright? I don't even know but I know I need answers, I have never stopped thinking about Mia over the past 3 month even though all my friends have tried to make me forget. But how could I forget her. I walk over to Jake, who is now talking to the other chick that was working with Mia.

I pay no attention to what is being said when I get to the bar "I need to see Mia" it comes out a little harsher than it should but I'm now starting to get angry. She just ran away from me again. I think I at least deserve some answers from her now that I have finally found her. I can't believe that she was so close all this time. Jake gives me a look as if to say calm down, I've got this.

"I don't know where she is, she might not be feeling very. If she comes back out I can tell her you were looking for her?" the other bartender says

"You'll need to excuse him, he's in a mood" Jake flirts with the girl and takes her focus back to himself. "So, you were telling me how long Mia's worked here?" Ok so he is trying to get information from this chick.

"She started in the new year" that means she has been here the whole time, shit I should have hired a PI, she would have been easy to find "Apparently, she moved here with her sister who is going to attend uni her in the fall. So do you fellas play hockey?" she places her hand on Jakes forearm flirting again with him.

"Yeah, we're here all week so I'm sure we'll see you around" Jake flirts back giving her his signature smile that gets all the girls swooning. Of course, he is looking at getting in her pants, that's all he's ever looking for. "Can you tell us when Mia is working next?"

"She's back tomorrow for the lunch shift, starts at 11am and I finish tonight at 10pm" again with her sole focus on Jake. I just roll my eyes.

"Please tell Mia to come see us, if she comes back out" I say with my anger decreasing slightly. It's not this girl's fault, she probably has no idea who we are, I doubt Mia has told her anything about her past. Alex and I make our way over to a table at the back of the restaurant and I sit so I have a good view of the bar in case she does come back, but by the look on her face when she saw me, I doubt that will happen. She'll probably end up calling in sick until she knows that we have left.

We order our food, but I can't even eat, I'm not hungry anymore. My mind is going round in circles trying to figure out why they moved here, did she really tear up my father's cheque or is she just waiting for the right time to cash it in, will she even talk to me, but the biggest question that remains unanswered is why she left, and I will be finding out the answer before we leave. I need to know.

She never came back, but I really didn't expect her too, not from the look of shock on her face when she saw me, but I also saw something else, it was guilt and sadness, but she covered it pretty quickly. There wasn't much talking during dinner, most of the team was sitting with us too so I really didn't want to talk about Mia in front of them. I just kept to myself. I could see Alex keep looking at me with a worried look on his face. He saw how I was after she disappeared at Christmas, and I know that he is worried as to how I am handling seeing her again.

I leave before everybody else because they were planning on having a few drinks, I just wasn't in the mood. I made my way back up to my room and collapsed on the bed. I don't know where my head is at, at the moment, seeing Mia again has thrown me. I grab my phone and I look at my lock screen, it's a photo and Mia and I one night when we were cuddled up together in my bed watching a movie. I just can't change it; it was taken a few nights before she left. I keep looking at the picture to see if there is any hint that she is unhappy with me but all I see is her bright hazel eyes and beautiful smile. There is nothing fake about it. So why did she leave? That is the ultimate question.

I lay on the bed with my eyes closed and my arm over my face, I know that Alex will be back soon and I know he's going to want to talk about Mia. I can picture her eyes when they meet mine and I could see the tears beginning to form before she went out the back of the bar. I hear the door open and then the bed dips next to me.

"We'll find out why she left man. You need answers to be able to move on. I will sit down there every day until she talks to me" Jake says "The girls will be here tomorrow, maybe they will be able to get her to talk to them" Alex adds on. I knew he would have told Sienna straight away. This is a shock to all of us.

I sit up on the bed and rest my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands. "What if she doesn't want anything to do with me. What if I never find out why she just left?" I can feel the tears beginning to form in my eyes but I don't want to cry so I look to the ceiling willing them to go away.

"I'm sure she is in as much shock as you are now." Alex says "Now let's get some rest we have training early in the morning.