Back to You

Ethan

I'm laying in Mia's bed with my arms wrapped around her and my hand resting on her belly and can't help but think back to last night, it was incredible, I didn't see the night ending like that when I decided to take her to the fair. The kiss on the ferris wheel felt magical, it was like she was giving herself to me but I couldn't help but think she was going to pull away from me again. Then she asks me to stay in her room and what came next was definitely unexpected, I just hope it was what she wanted and not just because of her hormones. As soon as I got a taste of her, I didn't want to let her go. The soft moans and whimpers at the start and then she didn't hold back. I'm sure that guys heard her and I'm going to get questioned when we go to the gym later.

What last night did prove to me was that I know that I am 100% still in love with Mia. I don't think I ever stopped, and I get a feel that she feels that same but I need her to tell me. I slowly untangle myself from her and make my way back to my room to shower and get ready for the gym session I had organised with Jake and Alex. I walk back into her room to see that she is still sound asleep, I place a soft kiss on her forehead and place the note letting her know where I am on her bedside table.

Making my way downstairs I can hear the other boys are already awake and ready "Good morning" Jake says with a shit eating grin on his face, fuck her hear Mia last night. "So, how was your night?" I make my way over to the fridge and grab a bottle of water and protein bar. "None of your business" is all I say as I make my way towards the elevator, and I hear them follow with Jake laughing at my response.

The drive to the gym was pretty silence and my mind wonders back to the fact that within the next 2 months, I'm going to be a dad plus starting up my career in the NHL. I have a meeting with them in 2 weeks to go over the training schedule once I finish college. Arriving at the gym I do my standard warm up and stretches before hitting the weights with the guys. I know that my mind isn't 100% on the task at hand because it has hit me how much my life will change in the next 2 months, and I still don't know if Mia will be with me.

"You alright man?" Alex asks obviously seeing that I have lost concentration.

"Just a lot going through my mind at the moment with a baby on the way, hockey, college, everything is changing and there are still so many things up in the air" I respond. Alex comes and sits down next to me on the weight bench. "Spill, let's see if I can pass some of my expert knowledge to you" he says with a laugh.

"I just..." I pause not sure where to start "I'm worried that Mia is going to leave me again. We have gotten close over the past few months, but I asked her to move in with me when I move, and she still hasn't given me an answer. What if she decides she doesn't want to be with me, I don't think I could handle that. Then what happens with our kid, I want to be a great dad, I don't want to miss anything. I need her with me."

"Well based on you the sounds coming from her room last night, I think you have gotten a little more than closer. Everybody can see that you too both have feelings for each other, but she has been through so much lately and is about to have her world turned upside down with the baby, now might not be the right time to start anything up. Maybe focus on just being there for her when she needs you and everything related to this pregnancy. And if she chooses not to move in with you, you'll still be a great dad. I can't see her taking this child away from you. You just might not be in a relationship with Mia like you hoped."

He pats me on the back and goes back over to the weights, he has given me a lot to think about. Maybe I should just try and forgot about what happened last night and as Alex suggested, be there to support Mia with the pregnancy. I'm still not sure what to do but I think that I'll just put last night behind me and see what happens. Maybe that's what Mia will want too. Not in the mood to lift weights anymore, I go over to the punching bag and put on the gloves. This might help get rid of some of my frustrations and take my mind of the girl that I can't stop thinking about.