MY SWEET ALYNE

CHAPTER 5

AVA

I'm happy that I got Alyne as our Neighbour, she lives in the room across us. Dadda told me that we could not disturb her, and we have to live separately and make no noises to disturb but whenever she comes home from work, I want to talk to her. she is so beautiful, and she looks so pretty, and she is so kind to me, whenever I'm in the hall or on dining table she sees me, she greets me and gives me chocolates.

I am happy that I have these buns today for school, it's been so long since I got these buns, when mom used to make them for me. I know dad don't like when I talk about her, but I really miss her and really want to be with her. I miss her telling me stories, braiding my hairs and taking me to park. I miss going to park. dad is making my lunch and hairs since last six months and he still can't make them. Whenever I complain, about them he scolds me and tells me to grow, but I don't want to grow up.

I like beautiful long hair like Alyne and Jessica but dad cut my hair short, he said that they demand care and time, and he don't have. In my previous school everyone made fun of me because of that, I didn't want that to happen here. 

I will try my best that they won't know my secret. I don't want to lose friends like I did before. I will make friends and play with them all day, I will paint with them, I will invite them to my birthday party and go to their parties. I had no friend left in Melbourne that is why when dad told me we are shifting here I was happy.

I remember when dad and mom used to fight. I used to feel empty, used to cry and I would try to stop them, but they never did. I used to feel like there is a hole in my stomach and I used to lose my appetite.

it was so frequent of them to fight whenever we eat, and when they do i dont know why but i lose all of my appetite I used to feel that the food was not tasty anymore rather i felt that the food left s]taste, all sensation that used to leave my body was the deep wait on my chest, like my breathing was difficult.

when your parents fight it feel like someone has put the burden of all the tension of the room on your heart. 

That was the feeling i used to get when mom and dad used to fight, luckily that feeling has disappered but there is one more feeling has disappered.

Feeling of being with a mom.

I never told anyone about my secret, but at the end they did and they started making fun of me and left me. 

I remember sitting alone in class, this won't happen this time.

"Hey, are you okay?" joey asks me, "you look like you were about to cry, are you ok, do you miss mommy?" 

This made me cry when my tears fell down my cheeks, she gave me pity smile and says, "don't worry we will go home soon then you can play with your mom all day." 

I don't have my mom at home, she left us.

"What are you going to do with your mom today? I am going to ask her to paint my face." She speaks up again. 

"Paint face? are you going to paint your face all pink today? You would look like an alien." I told her and we both laughed.

"No, stupid she paints, flowers on my face create animal's faces with face paint, ask your momma she will make your face like that, I will show you my face today at the park. You have kept the map safely and my number too, right? Don't forget to save it in your momma's phone." 

I speak up again. 

Why she says momma too much, does she know something. 

I look at her to find any signs of teasing, she looks at me confusedly and says, "you are looking at me like the man in the show looks people who commits crime, or he think they have, my mom watches it, what's its name, yeah shelook homes."