Lost (Paul Lahote story)

It's not goodbye

I don't know how long I've been waiting here. I can't hear anything but the sound of the cold wind and the sound of the snow crushing and my packs thoughts as I pace back and forth in my wolf form.

Slowly one by one, I was picking up on every single one of the Volturis gifts.

Aro: Tactile telepathy: with one touch I can read every thought a person has ever had.

Alec: Sensory deprivation: to cut off people's senses: sight, taste, smell, touch, and hearing. I remember Edward saying it is known as one of the most powerful gifts in vampire history.

Marcus: Relationship identification
Jane: Pain illusion
Demetri: Tracking sense
Renata: Physical attack diversion
Chelsea: Relationship manipulation
Didyme: Happiness induction
Eleazar: Ability identification
Corin: Addictive contentment
Afton: Mental invisibility
Unnamed tracker: Tracking sense

And the last one. The one that freaked me out the most. The one that I could never find myself using.

Heidi: Physical attraction: a special ability to make oneself attractive to other people, regardless of species or gender.

Having all these gift didn't matter to me. I just don't want to lose Renesmee. My life wouldn't mean a thing to me without that little girl...and Paul.
Ergo, for now my first priority is to keep her alive.

All I could hear was the conversation that could my pack was having. But I chose to block it all out. I don't want to know anything. I'd rather much be surprised then worry.

This was for almost an hour.

Suddenly deafening howls came from the clearing, so I allowed my self listen to my pack. They're gone. For good.

I took this as an opportunity to shift back back to my human form and run to the clearing. As soon as everyone came to my view I focused on Ness and Bella.

"I get to stay with you?" Ness demanded.

"Forever." Bella promised.

A smile grew on my face and I took this moment of silence to give everyone their memory back. Not being able to be yourself was hard.
•••
"I hope to see you soon." I turned to look down from the rooftop to see Benjamin and Tia. I quickly jumped down and was pulled into a hug.

"I hope so." I pulled back smiling. I stood there watching them go. I was really going to miss that kid.

Everyone left one by one, leaving the Denali's for last- along with Garrett. I really hoped he would stay and join their coven. But I didn't have to worry, I'm positive he would.

I guess, it was more that I fretting that I won't see them for a while, because I became attached to him and Benjamin and I know that Kate and I won't lose connection.

"Hard to feel confident when you're surrounded by horse-sized Wolves."

I snapped my head towards Emmet so I flashed over there and stood next to him.

"It was the wolves that stopped them in the first place." I assured him giving him a push.

"Sure was." Jake agreed.

"Absolutely." I turned to see Edward also agreeing. "That was another site they never seen. The true children of the moon rarely move in packs and they are never much in control of themselves. Sixteen enormous regimented wolves was a surprise they weren't prepared for...Caius is actually terrified of werewolves. He almost lost a fight with one a few thousand years ago and never got over it."

"So there are real werewolves? Like with the full moon and silver billets and all that?"

Jake and I snorted at Bella. "Real. Does that make us imaginary?"