You're too blind to see the smaller of stars.
Besides, we were each others brightness
Seeping through the trees
I can't stop thinking about what we did in a marquette park
You called me the devil, We danced till dawn
Great Big Mother in the sky as our only witness,
Criminals in an open field, ready for the taking
We watched the sunset; you stared? gave me a few thick slices of your mind a few hours prior
I wanted to let the cream cheese frosting drop down my bumpy bridge
But I ate you like a lady
Because we were still at work.
I led you to the canopy
A sky dark enough to hide us; here
I took a sip of poison, then a sip of you
Better than any alcohol money could but
I'm the same person whether I'm tipsy or not, except I worry about embarrasing myself less
I'm in the middle of saying nonsense when you kiss me
Embers in my stomach I can't control
Teeth into skin, I give you the carnal power
Im tired of holding
Before deciding I want it all back
U want it all
I want you
My fingertips find your friendly dreads again
Rejoices in familiarity and musk
How the hell do you always spell so good
Your scent of fatigue, perpetual and oily
Roses
Big inhales of it, you're my reverie
I let my posture unfurl into you
Begging for more
You say what you want
With the maroon clarity that excitees me
Of course I'm stalling
Eventually I unfurl downward, awkwardly laughing
Your pleasure is of the few that can satisfy me with its existence
Making those breathy howls toward the moon
You exhald and I can't help but smile
Closing my eyes, taking in the summer night air
The grass is cozy.
Stroking you off, you stroke my ego too much
A deadly mistake with someone like me
I don;t have the time to look up at your face
Before you exhale again, louder
Into the shawl of night
And my strawberries
I am infinitely grateful for your simplicity
An easy brainteaser, but I'm too tired of thinking to over-analyze you right now
Lost in finding you again
I feel you pushing me closer to you
Every move you make
seems to me
An effort to become whole
I'm happy you have hope that if we try hard enough, we'll fuse
Craft someone entirely new
It could be just the desire of now
I could just be delusional
Yet nevermind, these words serve to soothe me
You say
"This is what trauma looks like"
Wholeheartedly I agree
My own howls to the moon
To you
I try to find your eyes and beg them for the ruination that could put all of my selves back together again
I'm past seeing, I'm past feeling
In my true primal body I hold your head while you repay me
Usually my pleasure seems to take from the partner
You, in every other way you differ, hold onto
Me, reciprocating what I gave you
Precious awakening, like paranoia dissipating
You're so lovely and I don't want you to end
But you always do
And I'm old enough to accept it
But before you get off the Earth's hardwood floor with me
I kiss you again
And again
And again
Those lips I can never get enough of
Crawling to leave bruises all over you,
Trying to stall as best as I can
And it works for a while
I'm in your arms
A little too silly
Happy enough to pull away
I know it'll happen
Again
My therapist told me to practice patience
And this is how I choose to do so.
We hold hands and cross the street diagonally
I'm still tipsy
Off the nectar of my rose.
YOU ARE READING
An Enigma Is Too Much For A Cat To Eat
Poetrypoetry from the raw heart of a teenage girl. I wrote this poetry collection throughout my junior year of high school, when so much change was underneath the sun's aura. In and out of depression, in and out of the psych ward, I survived the first ha...
