i'm afraid of letting you see the real me bu i'm more afraid of being alone forever so i let go
lazy labor day, wishing you were here
if i could have it my way, i would spend the day painting you away
trying to capture nuance with brushstrokes
it never works how i want it to
i hesitate too much with the paintbrush
doubting myself
everything i really want is to fill the gaping black
so i cry when i have to stare at it, in all its unceremonious glory
it's just there
my mothers room is dark and my father works too much so he's not here
it feels like july again
i don't have a monster for tomorrow and i'm awfully stressed about it
i love liam but i'm to let him go with a letter and a stamp
i keep leaving my underwear in your car
i don't trust you but i love you
because you're a man and that's something you can't control
i grasp ahold of a silver lightning bolt in the midst of a rainbow and it tells me that you're going to be untrue
rumors, fleetwood mac
i don't know if it's lying to me but it's there acknowledge the picture
a part of me is waiting for you to leave me decrepit and tell all your friends my old secrets
my love spirals towards the sky for you like a cheerleader, still screaming when i'm tired and confused at who's winning
holding out my most fragile of fingers, i have already trusted you not to bend it back
intense so fast, already spoiled the night with the word i wasn't going to say but said anyways
i gave you my body's loose end and let you unravel me, knife in hand
kissing in the moonlight, i have you my most vulnerable of selves and you didn't do the unspeakable
you just held me
and that's why i love you
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An Enigma Is Too Much For A Cat To Eat
Poetrypoetry from the raw heart of a teenage girl. I wrote this poetry collection throughout my junior year of high school, when so much change was underneath the sun's aura. In and out of depression, in and out of the psych ward, I survived the first ha...
