Angeline - His Uninvited Queen ✅

26 - A Separation

Arun's POV:

When I opened my eyes slowly from my sleep, I felt a weight on one of my upper arms while laying down one sided. I blinked my eyes lazily to focus. What I saw was a shock for me. Angel was sitting near me. I was burying my face close to her thighs, wrapping one of my arms around her waist. She was leaning down, resting her head on my upper arm and sleeping. I jerked and jumped out of the bed immediately. Angel flinched. But, she continued to sleep, leaning back to the headboard.

I was really panicked as if I did a sin, for wrapping my arms around her waist and for sleeping so close to her, though I did it in my sleep. The reason for my emotions was, I usually sleep in the same position whenever Diya had studies during holidays, but I wanted to sleep. I usually tell Diya to sit nearby me while studying and I would consciously wrap my arms around her waist, burying my head near her thighs and I would take a nap during Sundays. Now, Doing the same with Angel was something uncomfortable and unacceptable. I regretted telling her to sit near me. I regretted leaving her to sit in the same place where my Diya used to sleep. I believed, The reason for wrapping my hand around her waist was her sitting place.

I immediately walked towards her, who was still sleeping and tapped her shoulder. "Angel... Wake up."

She flinched and murmured, "What Mama?"

"Wake up.. " I tapped her shoulder again.

She blinked, sitting straight and asked lazily, "I slept unknowingly. Have you slept well? Are you feeling better now?"

"Yes. And, Thanks for your help. I am...I am going to clean the room. You go home and sleep. Let's meet later," I said.

Her colour drained from her face immediately. I wondered why she was making a long face suddenly.

When I was about to ask the reason for her sudden gloomy face, She got down from the bed and said, "Thanks for the help??! Help can be done even to the unknown people. What I did to you was care. I never accept to stay with a man even for a single minute alone inside the four walls. But I was almost three hours alone here, sitting on the same bed with you. It was not a help. It was a care out of my love, trust, respect and compassion. Somehow, You didn't understand my care. It's alright. It's not a problem. Everyone doesn't have the same understanding level. Leave it. But you only told me to stay here. I did. Now, you are waking me up and telling me to go as soon as you wake up. You don't even care not to disturb my peaceful sleep. Mahi is also sleeping here. Are you going to send her too out of this home to clean this room? No, right?! Then, Why did you wake me up only and sending me out?! It feels like you used me for your benefits...like you told me to stay here to take care of Mahi while you sleep, and throwing me out as soon as you woke up. Thank you for this." She forced a smile and turned to walk out of the room silently.

I understood, I hurted her. In turn, it hurted myself. I myself didn't know why I turned into a different Arun who is overthinking and messing up everything. I was not this Arun. I was a person who was easily spending nights with sex workers. I didn't think of that itself as a sin on those days. Later, I understood it was a sin and I forgave myself after my Diya forgave me. But now, Just sleeping close to a girl without any bad intention felt like a sin to me. Just allowing a girl to sit in the place where my wife used to sleep felt like a sin to me. I was behaving with two extremes, it seemed.

Extremes are always poisonous. We should always be balanced between extremes. I was balanced when my Diya was with me. But, Somewhere I lost the balanced me along with my Diya. Now, I regretted losing the balanced me and hurting a lovely girl with my unbalanced overthinking mind.

"Angel.. Sorry," I said while she was going near the entrance of my room.

But, She didn't respond to me. She walked out of the room. I ran behind her while calling, "Angel, Wait...I am sorry."