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Chapter 6(Celestine)

I think it went, his taste. I think it left my lips. You know how I spent my entire day today? Licking my lips trying to still taste Alex. Why? Cause I'm an idiot who liked it. Liked what? Alex kissing me. Oh god. I kissed him back when I should have pushed him off. I think he probably did that just to piss Mindy off. No, I know he did that just to piss Mindy off, and my dumbass kissed him longer than I should have. Oh god. What the fuck. I walk through the school hallways panicking about what I'm going to say to him next when I slam into a wall. "You okay?" Scratch that, not a wall. Aron Walter instead. "OH hey Aron, yeah I'm fine sorry." I mumble out those words and try to move past him when I feel him pull me back, "hey um, what's the deal with you and Alex?" I look up at him and just stare because what?
1.What am I supposed to say? That we're dating or fucking?
2.Why does he care?
3. Why do his eyes look so red?
Before I could get some words out however, I feel familiar big hands pull me closer to a familiar body. "Hey Walter. What's up?" Alex's voice sounds deeper than usual, like he's mad. Shit, is he mad about the kiss? But he didn't get to be. He kissed me. "Nothing Alex. Just heading home." They give each other a cold look before Alex leads me outside of school, once we walk through the doors his whole demeanor changes and his eyes look softer, "you alright?" I nod not really knowing what to say or where to look. "I'm sorry about-"
"You never finished your thought." I blurt it out before he brings up today morning. I'm not ready to talk to him about it yet. "What?"
"From today morning. You mentioned you were thinking about rule number 2, but that's all you said. You didn't say what you were thinking." He sighs and catches the hint so he continues this conversation instead. "Yeah my phone blew up last night with texts and dms about that story. I was going to say we should have a schedule maybe, for posting. I know that'd be something you're more comfortable with." He was right, I was actually thinking of the same. A posting schedule is what I was gonna call it. It would consist of perfect times to post stories and posts because people interacted with social media the most during specific times of the day. The fact that he had the same thought as me continues to prove he knows me a lot more than I thought he did. "Yeah I was actually working on that. I'll text it to you, you let me know if it's comfortable for you."
"Well actually, why don't we just work on it together?"

And that's how I ended up here, in an ice-cream parlor, with Alex, discussing a posting schedule.
"5 pm on Tuesdays?" I ask with a nervousness to my voice.
"Shift it to 5.30, I have to study till then."
"OK, 3.30 on Saturday?"
"4.30 instead maybe?"
"Yeah thats ok"
And like so we kept discussing timings of posting stories, I kept intently staring at my phone rather than at Alex because I could feel his eyes on me. I know what he wanted to talk about. But I wasn't so sure if I could.
"5.pm on a Sunday-"
"I'm sorry."
I snap my head up to see soft green eyes, but no remorse in them. "Sorry?"
"I get you might have felt uncomfortable with me suddenly kissing you like that. And considering I broke rule 3 and all, I'm sorry." Again, he says sorry but there's no hint of regret in his eyes, guilt maybe. "But?" I could sense it coming so I gave him a head start, he smiled at me. "But I don't regret doing it cause, I would have eventually. I'm just sorry about the circumstances." He would have kissed me eventually? Why? "What do you mean eventually?" He smirked at me but before he could respond my phone started buzzing. I look at the caller ID to see my mother, she's probably asking me to come home. "You should get that." I look up at him once more before I finally pick up the call. "Hey mom"
"Hey sweetie, I'm going to need you to come home and finish up your homework right now cause you're helping me with dinner tonight ok?"
"Yeah alright, I'll be there in a few." The moment that statement left my mouth Alex took his wallet and car keys out of his pocket and headed towards the counter. I cut the call and walk after him a moment too late because he already paid for our ice cream. "Come on, I'll drop you home."

When we reach, I feel the car engine turn off and me and Alex both sit in silence. He turns to me and I know he's about to continue talking about the kiss. I don't want to talk about the kiss. All I can think about is the kiss but I don't want to talk about it. I want to relive it.
Before Alex gets any words out I turn to him and grab his face with my hands as I slam my lips onto his. He's shocked at first, but he quickly responds by kissing me back. Hard. It isn't like when we first kissed, we aren't trying or tasting each other out anymore. No we're just making out like we've wanted it forever. He slips his tongue in my mouth and I let out a moan as he grabs my waist and pulls me closer. My hands find their way to his hair and I grip it causing him to groan into my mouth, I feel his hands making their way under my shirt when-
His phone starts to ring.
I instantly pull back mortified at what I just did. Oh my gosh you idiot. He kissed you only because Mindy was there! So why the fuck would you kiss him now? Because you wanted to taste him again? Fuck!
"Rose I-"
"I'm sorry." I cut him off and leave the car running home. I don't hear him follow me which gives me both relief and disappointment. I head straight to my room and close the door and stop in my tracks. What the fuck did I just do? I'm so fucked.