I'm sick of this environment I'm stuck in
It's too intense, too verbally violent
I'm sick of being told what I do and don't want
When you know damn well you can't read my mind
I'm sick of your false persona
And the way they think you're somebody sacred
I'm sick of you always acting like I'm the worst
And like somehow it's okay to tear me apart
All I've ever done was fight with myself
Should I live to please you or to love myself?
The first is unrealistic, while the latter feels pathetic
It's what they say we all should do but it doesn't feel right
Maybe it's the trauma, I'm sure it's the fright
Making me feel like I have to disapprove
I have to disapprove of who I am on the inside
Right?
This is what you've taught me
This is where you want me to be
Drowning in a sea of self-hatred
And swimming in a pool of bitter lies
I've got to get away but I'm afraid I'll be abusing the abuser
Isn't that ridiculous?
I think I've turned into a shell and not a soul
It's because of you that I lost my motive
I can't believe this is happening
I thought I'd have it all figured out
But silently I'm crying
Hoping you'll throw me away before I let my anger sprout
YOU ARE READING
Lyssa's Poem Book
PoetryJust me ranting about my feelings through poetry, because why not?