Lyssa's Poem Book

Understand

Is it stupid that you mean the world to me

And all I want is for you to know?

All I want is to tell you 90% of my thoughts

Because I know you'd understand

You'd get every word but no one else does

So why do you have to be unreachable?

You're reading my mind without realizing I'm here

You're comforting me but not as much as I wish you would

I'm selfish because I want your arms around me

And I want you to tell me what I already know

That you felt like this too, that you know it's hard

Even though I haven't walked the same path as you

But I somehow feel exactly the same doubts

We have the same insecurities

We could strengthen each other if we had a chance

But I'm stuck here in a different world

Praying that I could teleport

Hoping for delusions

Waking up, remembering everything will never be that way

It can't be the way we need it to be

Do you wish you had a better idea?

Do you wish the outcome would be more like fiction?

I want the distance to make sense but it's weird

Being far away doesn't get any clearer

Even though it's supposed to be normal

I can't get used to this

Though I knew it all along

Nothing changed but it doesn't feel the same at different hours

What is this simultaneous hope and fear?

Love and hate at the same time

The obsession better not end in this life

I don't care if I fall apart because I'm glued together again soon

Just because I'll be looking at you

Not in a literal way

Don't remind me of it, though

Let me feel like it's not pixelated this time

You make me focused even when I'm distracted

I think it pisses some people off

But I'd never change a thing to please someone who doesn't love you

You're a savior and an inconvenience

I won't admit the latter 'cuz you show me that I'm not alone

I'm in good company when you're on my mind

So I wanna ask you if I've shrunk or grown

'Cuz these past few months have thrown me around

And I can't figure out where I am

Would you understand me if I asked who you're looking at?