Lyssa's Poem Book

Ashamed

Of course I'm paranoid,

You should know this by now

An innocent angel in disguise

That's what I think you are

We all know you're in pain

How could you feel any differently

Living the life that you're stuck in?

But you'll stay in the trap

Because you need us,

I wonder how many people feel hurt

It's like somehow we did this to you

But you want the agony

And so do we

I want to fix you without making you vanish

Do you really feel this way?

Do the subtle hints mean everything

Or are the songs just there by chance?

Of course you feel it, why do I question?

And there's nothing I can do

Just know that I love you

And it isn't fake

No matter what you're hiding

I don't think I wouldn't want you

I don't think we would ever scar you

I hope you can be honest more often 

It's okay to be realistic

Even if it ruins our dry eyes

I just wish we could all be in the same room

I wish we could understand you

Don't fall away, please

I'm worried for you

Even if it doesn't last

I need you to need me forever

You're the only reliance for me now

Can we be the same for you?

I know it doesn't work that way

But we've both pretended without a pause

We'll both be okay if we cling to our imaginations

Being delusional might sound negative

But it saved your life and it will save mine too

Again I'm just thinking about the day nothing will matter anymore

Don't let it all go to waste

There I go causing all the pain again

Don't listen to me

My thoughts don't matter

If we interfere I hope you hurt us back

We probably deserve it 

I don't care if you take it out on me

I can bear it all for you

Only for you, I'd let it fly

But you're far too kind

Why don't you ever feel ashamed of all the stupid things we say?

I promise I'll be okay,

Until I remember that you're not 

That's all there's left to say

I'm still afraid of that invisible dot