Love doesn't have to be hard

Chapter 29: Liam's first shots

Liam is a month old today, and we have to take him for his first set of shots. I am not happy about them poking my baby with a needle.

Zed held my hand when I got the tattoo on my arm that said Forever and Always. I was so nervous, and I don't think I will be getting any more. I was able to get the tattoo while pregnant. It was just a month or so after our wedding.

We finally got Liam on a good sleep schedule. Zed and I are no longer sleep-deprived. I have an appointment to get my blood work done to check my hormone levels. 

He took my blood two weeks after Liam was born. I started taking the pill that day, and he is doing a follow-up. 

He will call me with the results, and if it is working, then I will see him in two weeks. If not, then I will go in, and we will try another method. 

So, Zed has agreed if the pill doesn't work, then he will just use condoms until we find a method that works for me. 

The condoms we did have before we stopped using them had expired, so he threw all of those away. 

I have lost five more pounds of the baby weight in the last week. Zed just laughs at me and says that's great, babe. I know he isn't disgusted by my saggy skin, but I am. 

Believe it or not, you can have an amazing orgasm with clothes on. We were making out the other night, and he started rubbing on me. It felt good, and we both ended up with messes in our clothes, but we both felt relieved. 

That is going to be the worst part of having three more kids is the six weeks without making love. I am kind of nervous to see how it will feel. I am afraid that Zed won't enjoy it as much as he did before Liam was born. 

I know there are other ways I can please him, but I just really want the same connection we have always had when making love. The passion, the fire, and the amazing orgasms. 

I mean, we still have the passion and the fire practically fucking with our clothes on, and still having an amazing orgasm was a new experience for both of us. I even tried to strip my clothes off, and he said no, not yet. 

So, he is being the responsible person, and I am the one trying to go against the doctor's orders. Although to be honest, Zed has always been responsible. 

When we started getting closer, he kept telling me we needed to wait. The night, I was finally ready to give myself to him. He stopped me and told me about the bet. Even saying we needed to wait, but I was stubborn, and I wanted him. 

We have enjoyed these four weeks of just spending time together as husband and wife raising our son. We have watched movies, and he even read a book to me as I lay in his arms. I made the right choice when I chose not to fall for Hardin's antics and to finally walk away. 

Zed is the person I was meant to be with. I rarely even think about what would have happened if I had gotten with Hardin rather than Zed. Hardin likes to fight and break things, and he loves to use his tongue against people when he is hurting and all of his drama. 

With Zed, life has been easy, it has been fun, we have shared so many good memories, and it's just getting started. He is an amazing husband to me and an amazing father to our son. I can't wait to see Zed with all of our kids. 

So, for now, I am going to enjoy my time with him and our son. One day, our life will be so hectic we won't have time to enjoy it. Four kids is a lot, and all of them in school with extracurricular activities, while my husband works, will be rough.

It's the when he comes home from work, all of us sitting around our table eating dinner, Zed looking at our kids, then me with that look in his eye of love, getting the kids ready for bed, and then us going to our room and stripping our clothes off and making hot, passionate, love will make the busy, hectic life worth it.