My Temptation

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J A N E

I've been back home in Chicago for a week now, Miles is still in jail, my father is doing everything he can to get him out but nothing seems to be working. I haven't spoken to my father since he came to the cabin to tell me what happened, every second that Miles is still locked up, I'm losing more and more hope. 

He can't stay locked up, he should be here with me and living his life. If my father never asked him to do that, we wouldn't be in this damn situation. My father has killed several men before and he's had his men kill several others as well... why couldn't he just do the same thing this time around? He should have never involved Miles in this.

Miles and I are being torn apart again but this time is different, it's not as simple as before to where he can just show up again, he's in jail and could possibly end up in prison for God knows how long if my father doesn't figure something out. And I highly doubt that there's anything I could do.

My thoughts are interrupted by my phone ringing, I run out of my bathroom and jump on my bed grabbing my phone, praying that it's Miles calling me from jail. I haven't gotten a phone call from him yet. I look at the caller ID and my heart jumps out of me chest when I see it's Hayley.

What the hell? She hasn't spoke to me in weeks. The last time I heard from her was before Mason attacked me. I hit the green button and put the phone to my ear.

"Uhm hey Hayley." I say awkwardly 

"Jane I-I... I'm not even sure what to say." She stutters and I scoff, something inside me begins to burn with rage.

"Then why the hell did you call me? You didn't bother to call me or even text me when I was attacked and almost killed in my own home! I was in the hospital for crying out loud!" I yell angrily. I never even realized how upset I was about her not reaching out to my until I just heard her voice now. 

She was my best friend for YEARS and she didn't call, text or even visit me when I was in the hospital. I mean, who doesn't visit or even call their best friend when they have been hurt?

"I'm sorry Jane, I'm so deeply sorry. I'm the worst friend anyone could possibly ever have. I don't know what's wrong with me! I heard about what happened and I didn't call you or rush to the hospital after you were attacked." She says crying

"That exact thought was going through my mind when I was released from the hospital. When I got out of the hospital, I thought to myself 'my best friend didn't even call me. What the fuck is wrong with her' who does that Hayley?!" I say feeling myself getting angrier 

"I was so humiliated and angry with myself because I should've known that there was something off about Mason. I- I blamed myself because I was the one who pushed you to give him a chance and date him. And also..." She says choking up on her tears before she could finish her words. 

Annoyed and angry, I snap at her "Stop your crying Hayley! Finish what you were saying! And also what? What else is there?!" I yell, she takes a second to calm down and speak.

"I hate myself for more than just that... I hate myself because I was seeing Mason behind your back." She says and everything around me freezes instantly. It's like I could actually feel my heart stop beating and the blood in my veins stop flowing. I sit there, dead silent as my mind goes blank. 

So my best friend was going behind my back and seeing the guy that SHE pushed for me to start dating?! And then when she found out that he attacked me, SHE felt guilty?!

"I'm going to say this once and only once, delete my number and never fucking speak to me again you fucking traitor!" I yell and hang up before she could say another word 

I throw my phone on the floor and bury my face in the pillow, letting out the loudest scream I can as I feel tears rolling down my face. Things have just gotten a million times worse and I didn't even think that was possible. 

A few moments later, a small knock at my door makes me quickly get out of bed, wipe my tears and swing the door open. My father stands there with sadness in his eyes. I cross my arms over my chest and just stare at him.

"Janey please... come downstairs and have dinner with me. I know you're still angry with me and you have every right to be, but, you're my daughter and all we have is each other right now. I miss you and I would love it if you just came down and ate with me. I ordered your favorites." His voice breaks as he speaks and I can't help but feel slightly bad. 

I choke up on my tears, letting out a quiet sigh, I nod my head and walk past him then go downstairs. I hear him following behind me as we make our way to the kitchen. The table is filled with all my favorite foods and I can't stop the small smile forming on my face. 

My father has been non stop trying to get me to forgive him, I can see he's really trying to make things up to me but I just can't see that happening right now. I love him and he is the only person I have right now but I'm still just so angry at him.