Zustin - A new start

Lasagna

Zayn's POV:

I take a deep breath, trying to steady myself.

"I've never wanted to kiss anyone as much as I wanted to kiss you Justin. That's why I did it. You opened the door almost naked, and fuck, you looked so good. My whole body just reacted in a way it never has before. I've never been into guys, and it's freaking me out. This isn't who I thought I was. But you're just... you're amazing Justin. Your personality, how kind and caring you are. Everyone at school loves you because you're genuinely a good person. And then you look the way you do, which doesn't hurt. I don't even know how to say this to a guy, but you're beautiful, handsome, sexy, all of it. And after spending the day with you and Noelle, seeing how great of a dad you are... I just wanted you, in every way."

I pause for a second, trying to gather my thoughts.

"I'm sorry for what I said at school. It was a shock, and we never talked about it. Then suddenly, the whole school knew. I never wanted to hurt Perrie, she's an awesome person. I just wanted her to believe me. I know it was wrong to bring Noelle into it, but you know I didn't mean it. I only told Perrie it wasn't true because I didn't want her to know I cheated. I know I should've been honest from the start, but even before you came into the picture, things between Perrie and me weren't great. We were just too comfortable to face it, but I told her I wanted to break up."

I glance at Justin, hoping he'll say something, but he just stares at me, unreadable. So, I keep going.

"It's all so confusing. I've always been straight, but I don't regret kissing you. I wanted to do so much more. It's like I'm losing my mind because this is all so new to me. I've been with girls my whole life and never even looked twice at a guy. Then you show up, and I just wanna rip your clothes off and fu-, I mean, I just. Fuck, I don't even know. I don't really what this is, but I think I like it. I like you, more than just a, yeah, more than I thought.

Justin finally looks at me, and I can't figure out what he's thinking. I feel like I'm about to collapse from the nerves.

"I don't know what to say Zayn. I believe you didn't mean what you said, it was just the heat of the moment. I hate that I hurt Perrie too. I like you, I really do. But I don't know how this is supposed to work. You keep saying you're straight, so I don't get what you want from me." he says, staring straight into my eyes.

"You," I say quietly, staring at the floor. "I want you. This is all happening so fast, but I swear Justin, I've never been this sure about anything in my life."

We stand there in silence for what feels like forever. I'm just about ready to leave when Justin finally speaks.

"Do you want to stay for dinner? Noelle would love that," he says, a small smile on his face.

In my head, I'm screaming that I want to stay forever. "Yeah, I'd love to," I say, trying to sound calm.

We head to Noelle's room, where she's busy drawing something I can't quite make out. But she looks so happy and content that it makes me happy too.

"Noelle, Zayn's staying for dinner tonight. Want to help us make it?" Justin asks her.

"No thanks. Daddy, I paint," she says, focused on her masterpiece.

"Alright then," Justin says, grabbing my hand and leading me to the kitchen.

His hand feels like it was made to fit mine, and I'm dying to intertwine our fingers, but I don't.

"So... you like lasagna?" Justin asks as he starts pulling things out of the fridge.

"Love it," I reply, grinning like an idiot.