Zustin - A new start

Rock, paper, scissors

Zayn's POV:

"DADA DADA DADA" is what I hear as soon as I step into Noelle's new kindergarten I've never been to. She absolutely throws her body against my legs and I pick her up and can't help but to start crying, again.

"Is dada gonna be home with us again?" Noelle asks, and I almost cry (again) from how much better she's become at pronouncing words, and just in general from how much she's grown. I can't believe I've missed a half year of her life and I fucking hate myself.

"Will you?" Justin turns to me and ask.

"Yes, yes baby I will and won't ever leave again. I'm so sorry, I have missed you so so so much." I say as I bury my face into her neck.

"Are we're gonna see granny and grandpa again? I miss them too dada."

"They miss you so much baby. Yes of course we can go there." I answer and look at justin for confirmation that it's okay with him. He nods and I see him having tears in his eyes.

He thanks Noelle's teacher for the day and we start walking out, me not letting go of Noelle at all.

"I've gotten my license." I say and smile towards Justin.

"I'm never letting you drive you can't even steer a car on the PlayStation." He says and smiles back.

"You suck." I say playfully, pushing him a little to the side while walking next to him, Noelle running before us.

"Actually no, not for 6 months." He says looking first in my eyes, then down to my crotch and back to my eyes again, winking at me. Making my dick twitch and my mouth salivating.

Our day is spent with my family, my parents actually starts crying as soon as Noelle runs into the house, and they just keep on crying for a long time. I think it's the first time I've ever seen them actually cry more than shedding a few tears. It's bittersweet. When we're leaving Noelle says she wanna stay over the night, I kinda refuse a little because I've missed her so much and want to spend more time together but both her and my parents insists.

Me and Justin walks to the car. "You know I wrote you a letter for every month that passed, and I told myself that if I was still thinking about you after a half year, I would send them all. And I have, I guess they should be delivered soon. It's just me awkwardly saying a bunch of sappy nonsense so you don't really have to read them once you get them." Justin says smiling at me but looking a little embarrassed.

"Justin I have texted you every day, written on Instagram every day, went by your house even tho I know you wouldn't be there. I felt like a fucking stalker, I think 6 letter is normal, what I was doing was bordering a psychosis."

"Yeahhhhhh maybe this isn't a good idea after all, maybe it's better if we both move on."  I don't answear him because I felt my heart stopping for a second, so he continues talking "I'm joking Zayn. It is borderline psychotic but kinda romantic." He says squeezing my hand. "I've always had a thing for psychopaths." He adds.

"You've never had a real thing for anyone but me why are you playing? I ask playfully

"True, but now I do I guess. Come on let's head home, you've never seen our new apartment. It's cute, well kinda small in comparison to the house but yeah it's cute." He says as we get in the car and he drives away.

We talk about exactly everything during the car ride. He tells me about his new school and some of his new friends, he talks about Noelle who has gotten a lot of new friends, about the best restaurants in this area, about how he solved a problem not even the teachers could, how he's been having a lot of girls thrown at him, and he came out because he was tired of it, and now guys do the same and it's funny because that never happened in our school. I can't help but get jealous.