Zustin - A new start

Is he bigger than me?

Justin's POV:

"Hey Zayn." I say as we sit down at the breakfast table, ready to eat the breakfast Zayn made us containing burnt eggs and and burnt bacon. I love that he tries, but fuck it tastes terrible.

"Yes I know it's fucking burnt Justin not everyone knows how to cook, now eat and shut up." He says with annoyance in his eyes.

"No it's fine. I was just gonna ask you something, I don't wanna bring up bad memories and all that but I just wanna know. How much and how long did you do coke?" I don't really know if I wanna know, but I feel like I need to.

"Couple of weeks."

"How many?"

"Is that really necessary to know?"

"Yes. Just tell me, was it like 2 weeks?"

"3" he answered dryly. He sighs loud before he talks again, "fuck, okay let's be totally honest to get this to work. It was maybe around 6-7 weeks. I didn't really count, but a little less than 2 months." He looks down at the table while saying it, not wanting to meet my eyes.

I reach over to grab his hand over the table and I hold it tight. "Was it hard to stop? Did you get any help?"

"Yeah pretty hard. My dad was so fucking pissed he almost threw me out of the house, my mom had to force him to let me stay. But they signed me up for som program. I guess it helped a little but mostly it was just me being so fucking heartbroken. Obviously because of you breaking up, but also because of what I said, I really couldn't and can't still understand how I could ever say that. I knew it wasn't me, and I just couldn't be that person you know?"

"I'm so proud of you Zee" I say as I take a bite of the egg, spitting it out because not only does it taste burnt, but also because I just chewed on a big piece of the shell. "Sorry." I mumble.

Zayn stands up and takes both of our plates to the sink and throws it down. "Let's go out to eat before we go pick up Noelle."

"Thank God" I say and get up from the chair.

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"Zayn, I have another question." I say as we're walking towards the cafe, Zayn is limping a little, having a hard time walking straight.

"Go ahead."

"Were you ever in love with Perrie?"

Zayn looks at me like im crazy when I ask the question.

"Justin I never knew what love was before I met you. I didn't think I had it in me to ever feel anything remotely close to that." He says making me smile as wide that is possible.

"That is so fucking gay." I say teasingly. "But I feel the same, you completely changed my life Zayn. I love you."

"You're the gay one."

"Pretty gay of you to beg me to show you my dick, and beg me to fuck you yesterday." I say it a little too loud making a older couple turn around and give us a disapproving look.

"Only for you baby."

"I sure fucking hope so. Honestly if you started dating a girl during our break, it would've sucked obviously, but it you would've started dating a guy, I would've killed you." I say looking at him with a serious face.

"Why the fuck?" He asks me and takes my hand to stop us from walking.

"I don't know really. It's just I was the first guy you were attracted to, and I want to be the only one. It feels special you know, dumb as fuck but it feels nice, it makes me feel happy."