WHO WILL IT BE?

CHAPTER 36

"Yes," I said and he immediately kissed me, it was long and slow. We were interupted by a cough. My mom stood at the foot of the stairs. Matt jumped up and my cheeks went crimson. "Sorry Mrs. Thompson," he said and mom gave this strange look. "I better get going," he said. "Yeah. I'll speeak to you tomorrow," I said. "Evening Mrs. Thompson. See you Lia," he said. Totally awkward! I closed the door behind him and he mouthed,"Sorry." He apologises? I should have. I just hoped mom doesnt have those raging moments with me now.

"Is this what goes on in my house when Im not here?" Mom asked,but her eyes held a glint of a smile in them. "No. He just asked me out," I said and couldnt stop smiling. "So Eve is okay with this?" Mom asked. "Yeah. She gave her approval," I said. "He is sweet ,but what about Jordan? Eve told me things were working out between you two," she said. "No. He was into me but I never held any feelings towards him. I thought you'd be angry at me," I confessed. "Oh Im getting there. You wait for me to turn my back so you could go around and kiss boys. Lia, I dont know you that way," she said. Disappointment evident in her eyes.

"Mom, you honestly dont know me anymore. You know the major things, but you never notice the little things. Have you noticed that I have not yet had any closure over Dads death? Yes, we both lost him and it was terrible for you, but you weren't there for me. I made sure you were okay for those two weeks. Its supposed to be the other way around, Mom. Im the kid. You're supposed to be the adult. I needed you so much, but the only people I could lean on were Eve, Tyler, Matt and Jodie. You slept through my screams at night, my nightmares of Tom. You never even asked how it went or why I stayed in my room for a week. If it wasnt for Lyle he'd probably have gotten further, the second time Mom! You and I hardly speak or see one another and I feel as if you are distancing yourself from because although you are at home I feel all alone.

"This house doesnt have that warm and loving atmosphere anymore," I said crying. Mom's eyes were glossy. "Lia, Im sorry I havent been paying attention or giving you the attention you needed, but I've been trying to get myself back on my feet so that I'll be able to help you. Its impossible and unfair of me to expect you to move on if I havent. On Monday I spoke to Eve and asked her to keep an eye out for you for now," she said, crying too. "Thats your job mom. Eve cant be my best friend and my babysitter. It wouldnt have mattered to me if you messed up. I just wanted to know that you cared about me," I said, wiping away my tears. "Im really sorry. I'll be there for you and please, next time dont wait for me to speak before you tell me whats on your mind," she said and came to hug me. Im sorry, Lia," she said. "Me too, Mom," I said. I closed my eyes and could smell her perfume( Panache) and conditioner (shes too lazy to do her hair).

It was a smell I was all too familiar with. "Matt is more of a romantic than Lyle was," she stated and I gave a small chuckle. "Way better," I said. "I have no problems when it comes to Matt. Hes a lovely boy and you are just as wonderful. I just cant believe you are dating already," she said. "Mom, other girls started at the age of 13," I said. "I think we have established that you are not like other girls. Besides, until recently, boys never knew you had a figure," she said. "Mom!" I shrieked. "What? Its true. You always hide underneath those baggy clothes. You are so pretty, but you always hide. At least we know Matt obviously didnt ask you out because of you looks," she said. "Okay this was a very nice bonding session," I said sarcastically. "Goodnight Amelia," she said. "Goodnight Mom," I said,kissed her goodnight and went to bed.

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Friday morning I checked my messages and saw messages from Matt and Eve.
Matt: i hope you didnt get into too much trouble (biting my nails nervously)

Eve: i want all the details at school. Cant wait.;-)

I then replied to Matts message:
Not really. Mom loves you. Enjoy your day..