Her words make me feel waves of guilt and I need her to retract whatever statement she made at work today.
"Babe, why would you do that? I trust you to work with whomever you need to work with. You have to take that back. Tell them it's fine that you work with Kofi. Please!" I say in a panic and she chuckles.
"Spencer, relax! It's no hard feelings between us. And maybe we'll work together some time in the future. But I want to make sure you and I are in a comfortable space before that happens again." She explains.
"I didn't ask you to do that, Liv!" I say as I cover my mouth with my free hand and silently scream.
"I know. But I realize how much you support my dreams here in Philly. So it's the least I can do." She says happily and I continue to swallow huge gulps of regret.
"But I work with a female," I babble as my mouth tries to formulate the words to tell her about everything that happened tonight.
"I know." She laughs at my worry. "But you and her have nothing tying you together outside of work. At least not like Kofi and I do. I just want everything to be right between us."
"Everything is right, Liv! You don't have to compromise your work for me." I plead and she giggles.
"Spencer—- you're so sweet! But it's not a big deal!"
"Liv, please don't!" I beg selfishly.
"This is why I love you! You're so considerate of my feelings. And I appreciate that. But just know I made my decision for us. I wouldn't dare want work to interfere with home. And despite our distance, you are still very much home to me, Spencer."
Her words sink to the pit of my stomach like the Titanic to the ocean. Only, I feel like Rose and Liv's Jack—- since she's the one making the sacrifice to save me from drowning in my own egotistical tears.
I have to tell her. There's no way she should feel like she has to make drastic changes at work to appease my insecurities. Especially not with Erika with being my newest house guest.
"Liv, I let Eri—-" I hesitate as she waits patiently for me to finish. "I mean—- let e—-veryone—- see the new kit I put on my Ferrari."
My heart wants to tell her the truth, but my mind convinces me that I can get Erika out of the house before Olivia ever has to know.
"Awww—- baby, I'm sure everyone loves the car. And it's perfect! But not as perfect as you." She tells me and I literally start to gag at the thought of her seeing perfection in all of my flaws.
"I'm not—"
"Well, maybe not to everyone else! But you're perfect to me!"
I breathe deeply and shake my head at my terrible decisions.
"Well, I have to go back to finish up the event," I say without energy and she makes a loud kissing noise through the phone. "I love you, Liv!"
"Love you too! Text me before shoot-around tomorrow." She tells me and I nod as if she can see me. "I love you."
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FanfictionMessage Received is the sequel to 'Did You Get the Message'! Accepting the job in Philadelphia means Olivia and Spencer will live separate lives while being in a committed relationship with one another. However, things can get complicated as distan...