20th March, 2024
my light,
it seems like i am the one who misses you the most. i try not to think about it, but i still wonder. would my life had been better, more serene, had you stayed in it.
you're still my better half. i have been searching, Mikey. i have been searching, to find a pair, but no one compares to you, to your wise eyes.
are you smiling on me from heaven? or are you smirking at me from hell? i crave to be one again. to belong.
you know? i find out that i can't read any more. i discover, to my horror, that i can't listen to songs any more. my brain is fried, my heart is tired. the only thing that's constantly on my mind is you.
it is still impossible to accept that you're not mine any more. everyone's leaving me, my light. just like you left. i wish i could hear your voice one more time. i still listen to your voice messages sometimes; facebook is cruel to me, and still shows me memories of us, from 2019.
i can't be with another. who could possibly compare to the beat of your musical heart? i can't find another, who would be as warm as you, baby.
nights scare me, and days are dull. one more girl ruined me, and i wish i could tell you all about it. i think i would have been better by now, if i had you with me.
i wish you could write another dedication to me. just one more.
your nieces miss you.
i miss you, my heart.
