𝐓𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋 | 𝐒𝐀𝐃𝐈𝐄 𝐀𝐃𝐋𝐄𝐑 𝐗 𝐎𝐂

𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐃𝐘 𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐄

I was near the water at our new camp. It was an abandoned house near Saint Denis. The air was damp.

I stared at the swamp. I hated the swamp. I hated our current position. I was used to moving around, but this was excessive. I prayed Dutch had a plan. I held him so highly. I hoped he wouldn't fail me this time.

I belong back out west. We belong back out west. If only we hadn't made that mess at Blackwater...

"Hey." I heard Sadie's voice from behind me. I smiled as I felt her arms wrap around my waist. "Hey, cowgirl." I used her nickname for me making her laugh. "You know that's my thing." She kissed the right side of my neck. I smiled. "I know."

"How are you doin'?" Sadie asked making me sigh. "Alright."

I really missed Sean. Back in Blackwater, when we thought we lost Sean, it didn't feel real. But this, this felt real.

Not only did I miss Sean, but I was worried about Jack. Everything took a turn for the worse. I felt weirdly sad recently. Sadie tried to cheer me up, but it didn't work. It should work. The girl of my dreams was right in front of me, but I couldn't be more sad. It made no sense. Maybe it'd go away with time.

"So, you got any plans for today?" Sadie asked attempting to make conversation.

"No." I answered.

Sadie pulled away. "Are-" She gave me a sympathetic look. "Do you wanna talk about it?"

"No." I breathed out. "I would prefer if we just... pretend nothing happened."

"If that's what you want..." Sadie gave me a pat on the back. "then sure. But if you ever want to talk about it, i'll be here."

"Sure." I said plainly.

"Okay." Sadie nodded. "I'll see you later then."

I shouldn't be so distant, but I couldn't help it. Maybe Sadie was losing interest in me because of it.

SADIES POV.

Lord, i'm such an idiot. It was my chance to say something, but instead I just drew blank.

Rosa had been so distant lately. Maybe it was my fault, i've never been too good at comforting. God, why aren't I good at it? She was amazing at it. When I lost my Jake, she made me feel better. But I couldn't help her with this no matter how hard I tried.

Rosa deserved better. She's like an angel.

She's loved by everyone. Every time she talks it's like the room lights up. She can even spark a smile on Bills face. When I joined the camp, I asked around about Rosa. Everyone told me good things. They all either saw her as a sister or as a good friend.

After everything she's been through, she managed to be someone who's loved by everyone. I realize why everyone loves her. She's sweet, self-assured, and hopeful. She's good.

I sat down at the table and breathed deeply. I began cleaning my gun feeling worried about Rosa.

All of a sudden, Abigail sat next to me. She set her coffee down at the tabletop. "How are you?"

"I'm okay." I answered cleaning my gun.

"I can see you're not okay, Sadie." She took a sip of coffee.

I put my gun down. "I know."

"You want to talk about it?" Abigail asked.

"It's just that-" I started but immediately stopped. She just lost her boy. "I shouldn't bother you with this."