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SEPTEMBER 19, 1911

I awoke due to a terrible cough. It was the worst attack i've had in a while. I coughed as I sat up in bed. The chilly breeze, though appreciated, was no good for me.

I wheezed as I tried to breathe calmly.

"Okay..." I caught my breath and tried to rest.

I thought about what i'd do for the day.

Maybe i'll go down to lake and do some fishing. I'll do some fishing and pretend to be well.

Everyday it felt like I was pretending. But in reality, Sadie's death tore me apart. A part of me died with her.

I sighed and got ready for day. I did my same routine. Brushed my teeth, got dressed, fed the chickens, then cooked up my breakfast. Two years ago I cooked meanwhile Sadie fed the chickens. Then she'd come in the house and hug me from behind. She'd give me kisses on the neck and ask how I slept.

Now I smoked while cooking breakfast by myself. Then I ate by myself in silence. Nothing to talk about and no one to talk to.

After breakfast, I sat at the couch and looked at an old photo that caught my eye this morning. It was a photo of Charles and I.

I smiled at the camera with a wave. Charles just waved. I flipped the photo over to see Sadie's writing.

Rosa ♥︎ and Charles
June 1899

I smiled. She had drew a heart by my name.

I remember Sadie taking the photo so clearly. I remember I had to practically force Charles to wave. I miss him. I hadn't heard from him since he went to Canada.

And Sadie... I miss her with every inch of my body.

I grabbed the photo of us we took at the photography studio. I was kissing Sadie's cheek and she had a smile on her face. I felt a wave of sadness wash over me. My body began to ache. I miss her so much. It's a yearning I can't bear. I want her more than anything.

I sighed and put the photo down. I tried to fight back tears, looking up at the ceiling.

"Don't cry..." I whispered to myself.

I stood and walked over to the kitchen where I took an old lamb bone. I walked outside and then over to the back of the house. I stared down at a small grave.

Copper had died. He died last week. I had no idea what it was that killed him. It hurt me more than I thought it would.

Even my dog is dead. God, my life is just so lonely.

"There you go, boy." I kneeled and put the bone down at his grave.

I saw two men ride into the yard. I furrowed my eyebrows. "The hell?" I whispered as I stood. "You two want something?!"

"Rosa." I heard a familiar voice. It was Ross. Ross and another man. I could tell my their stupid hats.

I'm the biggest idiot in the world. I saw two men looking over my house the night before, but I thought nothing of it.