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Sixty Five

Love
26 June - England

Ever since the birth of Vienna a few days ago Niall has decided to move in and be a live-in nanny for us, whether he actually wanted to or Romeo somehow managed to guilt trip him I haven't quite worked out yet. But with Amelia on a business trip for two weeks in America, I think he doesn't know what to do with himself in the time he has alone so he's hanging out with the kids which has really benefited Winnie and I.

I wouldn't say we're sleeping but it means Win has the opportunity to have naps when Vienna is sleeping without having to worry about me alone with the possibility of all three kids on my hands. Niall is a good help, Mabel is stuck to him like velcro half the time but especially when I'm holding Vienna, she's certainly a jealous girl.

She absolutely despises watching me hold Vienna, asking for cuddles with her arms out while repeating 'bah' at me until I cave and snuggle up to her or Romeo does, he's so loving to Vienna. Always wanting to hold her, give kisses and help in any way possible. He's fed her bottles while Winnie's been asleep, obviously with my assistance and just simply been a little angel.

The amount of pride I feel for my three children is unbelievable, I genuinely can't even begin to comprehend the deep love and devotion I feel for them. It's insane to think how these tiny people have truly changed my life for the better, they've made me a father and I've finally found my true calling in life.

As much as I adore singing and entertaining a crowd, sitting cosy in my bed snuggled up to the four most important people in my life... and sometimes Niall is hands down what I want to spend every day doing without a shadow of a doubt. How could I ever crave something else?

The love in my heart is forever pouring out to Winnie who curls up to me every night with her hormones still all over the place from being pregnant, giving birth and now having a newborn to care for. I get to show her how much I fucking adore her, try and show how deep my gratitude runs in my veins in the hopes she one day understands how outstanding what she's done for me is.

And to think a year ago I had none of this.

I never would've dreamt I would be a father of three in such a short period, that I'd take in the babies of the most beautiful woman I had the absolute pleasure of growing up with, that she'd be my fiance and carry a perfect mixture of us in her tummy and give birth to our perfect daughter.

It's safe to say Vienna truly completes us in a way I can't describe, having three kids is perfect especially for right now and the near future. I'd have as many little babies as Winnie would allow me to, I love seeing tiny versions of her running around our house and getting to raise beautiful children to send off into the world knowing they'll achieve so much.

They grow up too fast, they truly do.

Vienna is a week old and Winnie had a heart-wrenching discovery two days ago, well, extremely emotional to her considering how tears have been a common reaction to most things that have happened in the past week. My sweet, emotional girl.