Age Of Innocence (AOI) [Sequel To IR]

Chapter 80 } Drunken

Part 2:
Matthew's POV

They released me. I still felt sick. Mentally. I missed her, I missed her so much. Too much. It physically hurt getting out of bed, without her there. She was living life, practicing for the competition. While I sat here in desolation feeling like complete shit. I was happy with her, she was happy without me. It was really the case of who got to be happy. And I will always put her happiness before mine, no matter the price I pay. She's my everything. I can't live without her loving me. I've wanted to end it so many times. But every time I think about what I'd be leaving behind. What a waste of the privileges I've had. I can't just waste my 'fame'. I can't give up on my fans, although I knew they still blamed Ala for my non activeness on social media. I saw one picture in particular that has kept me going these days. A picture of hands holding onto each other, like the one is saving the other. The hand falling is represented as mine in the picture. The hand catching my hand is represented as the fans. And that picture couldn't be more true. They were holding onto me. But how long would it be until our grip slowly started slipping. What would happen when they let go. What would I have left. I had to let them know I was still here, I was still going to take care of them, I was still going to love them, no matter the circumstance.

@TheMattEspinosa~ Guys... I know I've been incredibly distant lately, but you've got to understand I'm at a hard point in my life, however you all are keeping me going. Thank you. I love you all more than you'll ever know.

I didn't know how to fit all of my gratitude into 140 characters, but I did the best I could for the time being. I knew later on when I understood everything I was feeling, there would be a more heartfelt message.
My thoughts were interrupted when I heard a knock on the apartment door. I
lethargically got up and walked to the door. I opened it not bothering to see who it was first. Bailey stood in front of me with a smile.
"Hey. I know what happened with you overdosing. But I'm here to make you happy, so we won't mention it. Now, I have brought over a bunch of scary movies and beer." She smirked.
"How the hell did you get that?"
"The scary movies? They sell those at stores." She winked knowing I meant the beer. But I could care less where she got it, I knew it could help. "I'm kidding. My twenty one year old friend bought it." She smiled pushing past me. "I really don't know how to work this thing, so you can pick out a movie while I make some popcorn." I smiled and shook my head at her forcefulness, it wasn't rude, it was cute. I finally settled on a Japanese one that she had mixed in with all of the other movies. She plopped down next to me on the couch with a bowl of popcorn and two beers. I smiled and took a big gulp of my drink letting it burn down my throat.
By the middle of the movie we were both completely wasted. I didn't focus on the movie whatsoever. Just Bailey, and her flawless features. I laughed uncontrollably when she jumped at every little thing that happened in the movie. The movie itself was quite dumb. But it was cute watching her get so scared.
"Why do you keep laughing at me?" She whined leaning into my shoulder.
"Cause you're adorable when your scared." I laughed again. She groaned and dropped her head into my lap. She stared up at me with her sparkling brown eyes.
"I have this urge to like... Make out with you right now." She slurred.
"Well then do something about it." I smirked. She lifted her head and leveled it in front of mine. She moved her legs over top of mine and straddled me as I sat back and waited for her to make the first move. Instead of kissing me she grabbed the bottom of my shirt and pulled it up and off of my body, tracing her fingers down my bare skin once she had done so. She leant her head down slightly and started kissing my chest as she kept her hands roaming my torso. After kissing all the way up from my collar bone to my jaw she finally paused, her lips only centimeters from mine. After waiting and finally tired of being teased I took her shirt in my fists and pulled her aggressively into me causing our lips to connect. A moan immediately escaped her mouth. I smirked in satisfaction as I repositioned us pushing her down on the couch as I hovered over her being careful not to disconnect our lips. I took the bottom of her shirt in my fingers and pulled it off aggressively reconnecting our lips afterwards. We stayed like that forever, making out shirtless, until I slowly and cautiously unbuttoned her denim shorts. Before I could pull them off we were interrupted.
"Hey Matt we brought din-... Holy shit." I heard Cameron as he loudly made his way into the apartment. Need I remind everyone the living room is quite close to the front door. I suddenly stood quickly forgetting Bailey and I were both shirtless.
"Uh-." I started.
"Nope. Don't want to hear what happened. This is incredibly awkward, I'm just going to wait in my room while you dress yourselves, please." Carter laughed walking upstairs to his room. Bailey's cheeks were flaming as she rebuttoned her shorts and draped her arms around her chest. I found my shirt lying next to the couch but never spotted Bailey's. I put it on and noticed Bailey's cheeks getting redder and redder by the second as we continued to search for her shirt. Finally after Cameron put the bags of Chinese food down he bent over.
"Um, here." He said awkwardly handing it to Bailey. She smiled lightly and quickly put it on.
"Thanks, Cameron." She said her cheeks still burning hot.
"Well uh we didn't know Bailey was going to be here. But there's enough if she wants to stay." He said more directly towards me. I looked at her.
"I dont know, my mom might be worried."
"Oh come on, you can just call her. Besides do you really want to go back there still half drunk." I persuaded.
"I guess not. As long as Cameron and Carter don't mind." She asked hesitantly.
"Nah, we can watch some of these movies, hopefully they won't make me pee." Cameron joked. Bailey called her mom. We all seated ourselves around the living room and ate Chinese food while watching scary movies and drinking beer. Completely passing out where we were by the time the movie was over.