Two of a Kind

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▶︎ Who Can I Run To - Xscape
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Zendaya

Platonic, casual, or romantic, is it not still called a relationship? I prefer monogamy, but I guess that's just me.

If I don't feel protected or sense that you not looking out for my best interest, then that's it. I rather be safe than sorry.

"Okay, talk to me. You look like you been drinking the Kool Aid. You were just happy when the party started. What happened?" Kamal asked as he closed the door.

"I did it to myself..." I sigh. "Right before the party, I had Kam come over to help me get ready. I kinda told her how I been feeling her for a while now and we kissed. I was like this to close to jumping her bones but you knocked on the door." I say as I demonstrate the amount.

My fingers were close enough to hold the worlds tiniest violin. I can hear the SpongeBob sound ringing in my head.

"I cockblocked you. Damn, my fault." He scratched his head.

"It's okay, but.. then I had a strange feeling I couldn't shake. You know how I get when I have a question. I can't shake it til I get clarity." I caress my hair.

"Oh Lord. What you done asked this girl?" He asks as he claps his thigh.

"I asked her if she talks to anybody else." I lean my head back, falling into the wall.

"and she said yessss?" He asks as his eyebrows shot up.

"At least she was honest," I sigh as I close my eyes. "She said she wasn't having sex with her, just vibing."

"So you got your clarity and you're not happy you got what you asked for?" He asked, nodding endlessly with his tightly pressed lips.

Now that you put it that way. Hearing it makes it sound even worse. He just knows how I can fall into traps I set myself up for. Me, I never learn.

"Come here friend." He engulfs me into his embrace. A tight hug that was very much needed soothes my soul. Tears begin to flow.

"You know I got your back, sis. Glocks on lock, .44 at they front do'. Just say the word." He says.

"Thank you best friend. I'm gonna be fine. I just needed a moment." I wipe my eyes.

All I knew was Kamal was gonna be there when I needed him and vice versa. I always felt better talking about things with him.

"All jokes aside, I can tell she makes you feel some type of way so be honest with yourself and keep it real with her. Fuck if you want, stay just friends, or both. Just make sure yall communicate. Find out works for both of you."

He said a lot but all I heard was fuck.

This liquor is starting to hit my box and I'm thinking about our kiss. Having her finish what she started doesn't sound too bad. Round two? Put me in coach.

"Damn. I just wanna be swallowed up right now. Why she gotta be so fine, friend?" I cry on his shoulder.

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▶︎ Rules - Doja Cat
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