Two of a Kind

29

Kamryn

It's 9:50 and class is at 10:15. I overslept after such a tireless night. I didn't fall asleep til five in the morning. It was just me walking in circles and doing pushups on a loop. I couldn't stop thinking about Amari and how we should move forward.

I'm not trying to be tied down but it's not like I don't want her at all. I like her. She's big crush and not a little one. I want to make her feel the way she makes me feel. I just can't do monogamy right now.

I can't move so fast with her as much as I feel like we're compatible and clicked instantly. I want to protect her, but I want to protect me first.

In the same breath, I feel like I can't be turned off by Amari no matter what she does. She can be confusing but I still feel my heart beat faster around her. I'm just stuck now cause I don't see us being successful at the next level. We got the same bad habits. I tend to ghost people out of self-defense but I'm not trying to do that anymore, at least not with somebody I might see a future with.

I wish we just had sex and got the tension out the way. I guess the universe is just telling me it's better we keep things casual and cordial.

As I was just about to leave the house, I heard a knock on my door. I knew it was Amari because I know that she was gonna need to shower before going to class.

"Go right ahead and use my bathroom. I'm heading out anyways." I said, not paying attention to her while assembling my watch on my wrist and closing the front pocket of my bag. I was only consumed with urgency to make it to class. I rushed downstairs, hopped in the car and reached for my phone to check the time.

My phone isn't in my pockets. I dug inside my backpack and it wasn't there either. I must have left it in my room.

I ran upstairs to get my phone that I envision being right on my desk. The shower was going so she must already be in the bathroom. To my surprise, I opened my door and I saw naked brown skin. Woah. I instinctively block my eyes and apologize.

"Fuck. I'm sorry."

Did I just see Amari naked? Fuck. Why is she naked? Fuck. I can't believe she only in her birthday suit. What happened to wrapping up in towels or keeping your clothes on until you get into the shower. No cap, the thought of Amari being naked turns me on but I gotta go to class. I bit my lip running out the room because I ran into my dresser then returned to my car.

I clapped my face repeatedly to turn off the horniness. I could still see the silhouette of her body in my head. The more I tried not think about her, the more the visual of her breasts popped in my head all day. Any curvy shapes I saw made me think of her.

It's impossible for me to do any studying at home. I can barely think about going in my room without having flashbacks.

I walked to the restroom before claiming a study room in the library. I have to splash some cold water on my face. I'm hot just thinking of all the things I could do with her.

The water idea backfired cause instead of cooling me down, I was getting more hot. I started to imagine her splashing on my face.

I have to do something about these hormones or I'm gonna become irritated. I can't study right now if I tried so I went home to relieve myself and to my surprise I was not the only one who decided to be at home early.

Amari was sitting on the couch with a notebook and pen, covered by a blanket. We gazed at each other and I could tell she was just as surprised to see me. I guess I'll speak first.