Two of a Kind

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Amari

I dragged the door closed, just beside my hip, then took a deep breath. I exhaled then felt my heart beating fast inside my chest. Has my heart ever beat this fast? Immediately, I put my hand on my chest and my heart went back to normal.

My body is so warm on the inside but I feel so chill on the outside at the same time. I'm in this dark hallway alone. It's so dark, I think my eyes turned off. Fuck. Why did I think this was a good idea? Where the hell is the light switch? Isn't there a light in this hallway?

Suddenly, I ran into a wall and just allowed myself to fall to the floor, silently dying laughing. That was a high moment for sure.

I was crawling down the hallway, hoping I could make my way to the stairs in the dark. It took my eyes a minute to adjust to the pitch black space. A minute too long for me to panic.

What if I go blind from smoking? If this was laced and I only smoked once, that's just what I get for trying to take risks. I'm gonna end up in the hospital, my Dad is gonna find out and kill me.

The instant I started to panic and have a mini heart attack, I noticed a subtle reflection of light, reassuring me that I was going in the right direction. Then, it hit me that I'm actually crawling like a child right outside the bedroom of my crush. I'm definitely high and it's hitting me, fasho. Hehe. Fasho. I'm happy to be here though. Even now, alone in a dark hallway.

Finally, I found the stairway then I crawled out enough to see downstairs and notice the ground floor. It's so far down and I'm so far up. Were we always this high?

I feel like I'm high as the clouds like I'm in the sky, floating around. I feel like my head is getting lighter like my brain is floating away. Immediately, I grabbed onto my head to check if the top of my head was still attached. Okay. I'm good.

Did I just check my head? I'm so high, I feel it in my bones. Am I tripping?

What if I got too high? I hope I don't start tripping.  What if I trip out around Kamryn? If I embarrassed myself, I would just have my thirteenth reason.

Hopefully, she doesn't come out of the room. She's gonna think I'm crazy. She's gonna ghost me. We're gonna have another setback. It's just one thing after another. We must not be meant to work out.

Ouch. My stomach is suddenly upset with me. I feel like it's doing somersaults trying to figure out what to do with all that food I ate today. Drinking water probably triggered this movement. Kamryn fed me so good and now my body is trying do it's job, but it's feeling more like a stunt man job. I started rubbing my aching stomach, in hopes it would feel better in a short amount of time.

A familiar grumble echoed from my stomach and I knew what was coming. I gotta use the bathroom. However, Kamryn cannot hear the sound of me using the bathroom, so I need to go downstairs. One day, I'll be able to use the bathroom in front of her, but today is not that day.

In attempt to go downstairs, I tried to stand up but went unsuccessful. My feet won't move, but they're tingling like they feel fuzzy. I literally can't make my feet work. I sat on my butt and leaned against the wall next to the stairs. Now, I'm gonna be up here all night passing gas because I can't get downstairs to use the bathroom.

She's gonna think I'm dirty and don't have home training. Then she's gonna kick me out and never want to speak to me again. If we never speak again, I don't know how long it would take for me to recover. I like her, a lot. Kamryn really ticks all the boxes. She's calm, caring, confident, in college, cute, corny,  compassionate, clean, creative and she's tall as the ceiling, in my head. She's more than a catch and I'm not throwing her back into anybody's arms or the streets. I can't imagine losing her.