Love In Denial

31. Hurt beyond repair

Ranvijay Pov

The continuous knocking sound of the door came into my ear and i tiredly opened my eyes.

I straightened up my back and opened my eyes only to realise I am still in my office. After that incident i didn't leave my office. My mind is so fucked up to even take a step.

My heart is bleeding my soul is tearing apart with every passing moment but i can't do anything because i know she is just a woman and i will forget her.

It's not a big deal.

"She is just a woman and i will forget her" i whispered the same thing from a millionth time, cause its giving me strength to not break myself for women.

I will forget her.

It's been 5 days since she came here to meet me, why i don't know.

Infact i don't even fucking want to know.

That night she called me so many times but i didn't pick them up then
she came to meet me and i threw her out of my eyes.

For a second i felt bad for behaving rudely with her.

I have never behaved rudely with her because she is my bacha...no she was my bacha.

"Bacha" even with the thought of that word a lump formed in my throat but controlling myself i opened my laptop to engulf myself again in work.

As i know she is a cold hearted emotionless woman there is no way i should care for her.

If she had used me for that N.G.O i would have forgiven her in seconds , for God sake i would have given her that by myself but she chose shiv. She choose shiv to manipulate so she can get those damn fucking paper.

I really want to know what there is that shiv can do but i can't.

I was lost in my thoughts when a loud voice came from behind the door.

"Rana, open the door" Shiv was behind the door, an unknown panic rushed in my veins because I know if he sees me in this condition, he will immediately know something is wrong with me.

Composing myself I took a remote of automatic door in my hand and pressed the button.

The door opened.

Only to see a man with a calmed face his breathing heavy ,eyes slightly yellow,his gaze roam over my body like he is making sure I am fine or not.

And then after a second his breathing calmed too.

"You are stinking" he says and stepped inside my office.

"I am not" i replied with the same enthusiasm but it's a lie because from the last 5 days I am in my office without a shower or food.

All I am doing is laying like a dead body, it all is feeling just waste without her.

"You aren't texting me from the last five days" he asked, and stood beside me, looking at the laptop , what am I doingll ?

I am not in contact with anyone, after that night she didn't call me,maa called me a few times but instead of receiving her call i sent her voice note that i am busy.

I didn't have any strength to greet anyone.

"I realised you are not a child anymore"i repeated his words and he rolled his eyes.

But, i really hope that this bastard's eyes aren't yellow because he didn't eat anything without my reminder.

"Rana, you are shutting off yourself again" he says softly and i gulped.