Love In Denial

36. Leave my home.

Avni Pov

"Avni, how was your yesterday's charity program" papa asked while fixing his tie in the mirror of the his room.

"It was okay, especially the children they were amazing " i replied and took out the box of maa's medicines to check out which one is not available so i could get it.

He is still in room because dr. has told him to not to move much as his chest injury was deep so most of the gatherings are attended by me as papa stays in the office and maa usually stays with him.

"Thank you beta, for handling this much while managing your own work" he muttered softly and turned around, i sighed.

"You say this sentence daily"i squealed, rolling my eyes i put all the necessary medicines in her box and shut it close.

A month has passed since he came back home.

No meeting. No greetings.

Nothing except loneliness.

Most of my time is spent in my institute or with family members because he stays in his room with his laptop.

Bhaiya or maa often stays with him but as much as I have heard his wounds are healed still he is not leaving his room, don't know why?

"If someone works daily then they deserve the appreciation daily" he muttered happily, caressing my hair and i smiled in return.

"I am staying at home today, it's my company holiday today " i lied, i am feeling very tired i don't have the will to go to the institute and sit there like a corpse, at least home isn't that much depressing.

"Okay, then rest well and eat well beta" saying this he walked out of the room and i walked behind him with the small smile on my face.

As i stepped out of my room my sight fell on something and my smile changed into the remorse.

Bhaiya.

He is walking out of Ranvi's room, the room which we once owned together, the room which has become my home my peace and my comfort space.

It's lost all because of me cause i know i don't deserve it. It's me who told bhaiya to tell everyone to change my room.

On the day Ranvi woke up he came to meet me and straight forwardly asked me only question.

"If you loved him, then why would you insult him in front of another man".

A single sentence by him has made the dragged land away from my feet. For a minute i just couldn't understand what he was even saying when I insulted Ranvi and why would... then it clicked in my mind. It means that day he had come to me later he has heard those demeaning things about himself that's why he made distance with me.

That's why he ignored me.

Who wouldn't.

That day with Vyom when I was sarcastically mocking him but it wasn't intentional or real, i lost my control i got frustrated i usually say things in anger i don't mean but earlier no one cared.

I didn't mean to hurt him but he heard and got hurt because of my venomous words.

He came to meet me he got hurt then he started ignoring me I misunderstood his actions ,got panicked and  later when he came to clear all the misunderstandings...

No way.

I did that.

I was just wondering the guilt will kill me or i should kill myself first.

"For god sake Avni, say something" he asked the same question for the 15th time but i stayed silent.

I couldn't speak I don't know how to tell that it wasn't intentional, i could never hurt him intentionally I was hurt too I had to save myself too because i have no one who would threaten someone for me to kill for me but I stayed silent.