I'll Be Your Light In The Darkness [brustoff]

Chapter Three

Ben POV:

I watched as he dropped the blade down the toilet and flushed. "HOW COULD YOU?! YOU SELFISH FUCK I HATE YOU!!" I screamed in his face.Leaning against the fall I felt all of my emotions that I had been hiding for so long finally release as I began to sob. Slowly I slid down the wall hiding my face in my arms and began to cry.

"Ben? Ben look at me" spoke Danny softly. "No" I whimpered as I shook my head  staying face down in my arms. I felt Danny's hands on both sides of my face slowly bringing my face up to look at him.He was kneeled down in front of me and his eyes were glasses over as if he was about to cry. "I'm so sorry for shouting at you, grabbing you and flushing you blade down the toilet it's just that....I care about you so much Ben and seeing you like this hurts me and I don't want to sit back and watch you slowly die" whimpered Danny as tears began to fall.

Danny opened up his arms and wrapped them around me. Shuffling closer I relaxed in him embrace as I began to cry. He gently rocked back and forth rubbing circles into my back."Why are you doing this Ben?" He asked softly."Y-y-you wouldn't understand" "I don't have to understand, I won't try to understand if that make you better" he responded.Taking a shaky deep breath I spoke "because I hate myself Danny....I'm pathetic and disgusting why would anyone want to be around me?" "Well sorry to break it to you Ben you're the complete opposite of how you feel about yourself...your strong you may not think it but you are and your definitely not disgusting not gonna lie your pretty fit to be honest"I felt a heat rise to my cheeks as I began to blush "oh fuck off" I chucked slightly."I'm being serious!" He said standing up for a second grabbing the mirror off the wall."Even look yourself" he said placing the mirror in front of me. As I looked in the mirror I was crying I didn't see what Danny could see."I-I don't see it" I whimpered.

Danny placed the mirror back down and looked into my eyes. "You will eventually....if you let me help you...do you want me to help you?" He asked.I knew I couldn't live like this anymore and that I needed help. Maybe I knew I needed help a long time ago.Slowly I nodded my head before wrapping my arms around him. "It's ok shhhh" he hushed comforting me."It will get better....I promise" he whispered. Slowly I pulled back looking into his eyes.

Danny continued to look into mine and every few seconds would look at my mouth. Gently he placed his finger and thumb under my chin. My heart began to pound as I began to realise what was about to happen. I had finally been waiting for this moment and I felt like I couldn't move. Slowly he pulled me closer and pressed his lips against mine. It was soft and tender something I would not really expect from Danny. He slowly pulled away looking into my eyes again before he moved back to kiss me again but this time I kissed back. We pulled away again and Danny pulled me into his embrace. "Everything will be ok I promise"