I'll Be Your Light In The Darkness [brustoff]

Chapter Eighteen

*Trigger Warning*
Ben POV

"You ok?" Asked Denis as we sat in the waiting room of the doctors.
"I think so" I muttered.

I felt Denis' hand envelope mine just like Danny did. It felt nice and comforting.
"Everything will be ok" he said reassuring me.
I nodded my head in agreement I just hope he's right.

"Benjamin Bruce?" Called the doctor.
Denis kept hold of my hand different to what Danny did. When Danny was here he pulled away. It felt nice and I didn't feel ashamed.

"Hello Ben it's nice to see you again" she said shaking my hand.
"And this is?"
"Denis" he responded shaking his hand.
"Friend of yours?" She asked.
"No..my boyfriend" I said proudly

"Aw congratulations how long have you two been together for?"
"A couple of months" responded Denis as we sat down.
"So Denis I'm guessing you're familiar with what Ben went through?" She asked.
"Yes I am" he responded holding onto my hand.

"Well Ben I can already see an improvement based of the last time I saw you but what you told me on the phone you think you're going through a rebound?" She asked me.
"Y-yes" I replied nervously
"It's nothing to be ashamed about its quite common for people who went through anorexia to go through a rebound" she told me trying to reassure me.

"Ok Ben have you vomited up any of your food?" She asked me.
"No...I just haven't been eating much...but I've had urges to" I responded.
"Have you inflicted any pain on yourself?" She asked me.
"No" I responded.

"Can I see your arms?" She asked.
I turned to look at Denis he rubbed my thigh trying to comfort me.
"It's ok" he whispered.
I rolled up my sleeves and she looked to see the almost fading white lines.
"Well I'm very proud of you Ben by the looks of it you haven't self harmed in almost a year you should definitely feel proud of yourself" she said happily.

"These scars will eventually heal it's just taking quite a while since you cut quite deep and based on what you've told me and your therapist you were breaking these scars" she explained.

"I'm just going to weigh you if that's alright?"

Quickly I stepped on the scales as she took a reading. "Ok Ben based on your height and age you have lost a little bit of weight but not a lot but you feel like you're heading towards that path again?"

"Y-yes"
"Ok Ben based on what helped you last time your friend would give you small portions of food and build it up? So I'm going to set a timeline to get the process going and I can refer you to a therapist if you need one...do you feel like you need one Ben?" She asked me.

I turned to look at Denis who have me a soft smile holding my hand. I felt like I would be betraying Denis is I spoke to a therapist instead of speaking to him. I don't really need a therapist...I have Denis.

"No...I don't think I need one" I responded.
"Are you sure?" She asked
"Yes I'm sure"

"Ok I will need you see you in about a months time so we can keep it up to date on your weight and how you're feeling but it was nice meeting you again and it was nice meeting you Denis" she said as she shook our hands before we left.

"Why did you turn the therapist down?" Asked Denis as we left the doctors.
"I began thinking last night...I don't need a therapist....why would I need one if I have you" I said turning to look at him.

Denis gave that adorable smile before kissing me on the cheek. "I will help you through this Ben"

"I promise"