BAD OMENS ✬ luke hemmings

5.9 | reckless driving

She's being mean, she knows she is!

Aria doesn't like what she's doing, but she doesn't know what else to do.

Now that she's had an entire weekend, and a few more days during the week, to sit and think about what happened over Saturday, the consequences of her actions – amplified by the horrendous ability to overthink – have finally sunk in, causing her to spend most of this week avoiding the blond as if he were a living embodiment of the plague.

Again, Aria isn't exactly content with her plans of dodging Luke – ignoring him at every given moment, and turning the other way when he sees him walk into a room or from across the hall. More so, she hates how she can sense his eyes on her, hear all those questions running through his mind but unable to voice and feel whatever perception of betrayal he must be feeling.

She's been ignoring him, icing him out, like her life depends on it by doing each trick in the book to keep him away from her. It's a problem, she knows, but she can't exactly go back to normal with him after what happened at prom and the after-party– which she's been convincing herself happened only in the heat of the moment.

Things were going so well between them!

The girl would have been perfectly happy wondering about 'what-ifs' and mediocre fantasies of what could be if things were different. She would be fine with silently beating herself up as she chases after a guy – she still isn't entirely sure – she likes while pushing him on to pursue others who aren't her.

She has accepted the idea that she could live the rest of her life knowing that they will only ever be friends and nothing more because anything more than friends could risk her losing everything– she'd rather have him as a friend, where they will naturally drift apart, instead of fucking up and having him be the one that got away.

Or maybe she's just scared because she actually has a chance to get what she wants – who she wants. Aria's never been in a relationship! She doesn't know how any of that works! What if she gets bored, and gives up on him? What if she realizes she doesn't actually want him? What if this is all just some sick form of limerence, and he doesn't meet the standards in her eyes?

Not that the last part is entirely true, she has no standards for Luke. For once, Aria actually likes a guy for who he is and not what she made him out to be. But what if she's lying to herself? What if everything she thinks she knows about Luke is a lie?

"Aria?" Michael's voice, and the pillow he throws at her, snap her back into reality.

"Yeah?" She says, sitting up from the couch in the library, pushing her headphones down to rest at her shoulders and turning her head around to face the boy. Christ is it oddly quiet in the library, she can hear the music playing from her headphones– was she really listening to music that loud?

"You good?" He asks, still lying on the couch adjacent to hers, laptop resting on his stomach as he watches some anime that Aria's never bothered to watch – nor take an interest in. "You've been, like, staring at the ceiling for the past fifteen minutes only moving to replay the same song."

"Yeah, I'm alright." She nods, "Just bored." Aria's bored of thinking about that stupid fucking night that seems to be permanently engraved in her memory and playing on a constant loop in her mind. She swings her legs, feet hitting the floor, "I'm gonna go to the bathroom, I'll be back." She mutters, slipping her phone into the pocket of her jeans.

The girl is definitely overthinking things, right?

She might be ruining things even more by avoiding Luke! She should just talk to him! Maybe pretend that him kissing her never happened– or that she kissed him back never happened. Well, no, that wouldn't work because it'll make it seem like she regrets it– which she doesn't, unless, he regrets it.