Adam X Lute: Undying Love

Lute: Pov

*A few days earlier

"God damn it sera it's the only way to put those fuckers back in there place". I said slamming my fists on the table my new metal arm leaving a mark

"Your army already proved they can't handle going into battle what makes you think they will do any better this time?" Sera asked

"I've been training 10x harder than Adam I know we can win".

Sera just paused there for a moment not saying anything I dont really care a just want my answer

"Adam wouldn't want this" she finally spoke

"Oh don't give me that bullshit sera" I spat back at her

She looked shocked and a loss for words after I said that

"For the passed month that's all anyone has been telling me 'Adam wouldn't want this' or 'Adam would hate to see what you've become, don't you fucking think I know that?" I could feel hot angry  tears coming down my face

"Well frankly Adam isn't here and he's never coming back" I moved closer to sera so I was right in front of her face "I could give less of a fuck what he thinks about me"

Sera looked at me in horror she clearly was appalled by what I said. She stayed in silence for a few more minutes until finally clearing her throat "fine you win the extermination is back on in 6 months" before I can begin celebrating Sera hit a bombshell on me "But you are not to touch or go near the hotel" she warned

I gave her a silent nod as I walked out of the room. Truth is I'm gonna kill everyone in that hotel whether Sera likes it or not.

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I kick the door open to my house I officially moved in into Adam's old house. It's a lot bigger and I don't have to pay rent. Benefits for being the first man I guess. I throw my mask on the floor every room was a mess but I couldn't be bothered to clean it up.

I grabbed a granola bar as I still am never hungry. I popped some pills I was prescribed, there were warnings but I couldn't care less. As I begin eating I swear I hear footsteps in the hallway. When I go to check there's nothing. That's fucking weird.

I moved back into the kitchen and began staring out the window. I don't know why but it was peaceful.

"Hey Dangertits" I hear a voice call me from behind and I quickly turn around but no one was there. Ok I think I'm going crazy what the fuck.

"So whatcha eating bitch" I look to my side and there he was. Fucking Adam he looked so.....alive.

"Adam how are you...." He just laughed in response. Oh how I missed that laugh and the sound of his voice

"Bitch this isn't real" he scoffed "I'm in your fucking head like the ghost of Christmas past or some shit"

I let out a little laugh, it felt good to laugh I haven't in a while. But Adam always made me laugh.

"It's good to see you sir even if your not real"

"Yeah, yeah don't get all emotional"

"I didn't think I was that crazy to start hallucinating"

"You dumb bitch it's the pills, did you even read the bottle?" He asked harshly

I picked up the bottle and he was right under the warning section it read " *May cause hallucinations" man I feel stupid, I chuck the bottle into the trash because I don't want this to be a reoccurring thing.

I walked to the bedroom and just laid  down

"So what does a badass like you do without the dickmaster around" fake Adam said plopping on the bed

"I don't want to talk to you" I said rolling over and facing away from him

"Oh come on what's wrong little angel" he said teasingly

"You don't get to call me that you're not fucking real!" I yell I feel like my brain is caving in on itself.

"I'm as really as it's gonna get, I mean it's your fault he's dead and if he was still alive he would've kicked your ass to the curb already" he scoffed again

"Just go away, I'm never taking these stupid pills again"

"I'm here until the pills effects wear off girly"

I just laid there and tried to focus on anything else. But having Adam back even for a little bit might be worth it right? Even though it's not actually him

"Did.......Did you love me" I should know the answer and I sound pathetic saying it out loud

"I don't know babe like you said I'm not actually him, but if it were up to me I would bang anyone else before your crazy ass" he ended it with a obnoxious laugh

"You two don't even act the same" I scoffed at him

"Well sweetie I'm a figment of your brain, your basically telling yourself this"

"I'm done fighting with you" I say trying to close my eyes but the lingering fact is I fucking can't.

After about ten minutes I open my eyes and fake Adam is still just laying there

"I know you're fake but....." I pause for a moment "can you hold me?

He doesn't say anything and just reaches his arm out and pulls me in close. It felt almost real like I was in Adam's arms again. I felt happy tears fall down my face as I drifted off to sleep.

In the morning I woke up, that was the probability the best night of sleep I've gotten in a 2 months. The warmth of his body felt so real. Like he never left.

As my eyes adjust I realize that fake Adam is gone. It was like he left for a second time. I already threw the pills away. It's probably for the best. Now I have even more of a reason to tear down that hotel down all by myself.