La Santa Muerte

Stop repeating yourself

maricela: what do you mean by that?

maya: I'm over 18 I have a career ok

maricela: yea I get that but how is he locked up and your pregnant?

viviana sat down and opened the bag of food

maya: why is this turned back to me? she wants to be a detective?

maricela: don't throw your sister under the bus like that haha whos your boyfriend? because if he's locked up then I know him

viviana: wait mom you don't care that I want to be a detective?

maricela: one thing at a time please because if I go down that route I have to explain even more and I have something to handle right now maya what the fuck?

maya: his names kevin ok kevin

maricela; Kevin? wait you dated a Kevin..

maya: yea my first boyfriend we went our ways that summer he popped up last year and we started talking again and well yea huh I know I know im just like my birth giver got knocked up and now he's gone I don't know how much time he has either

maricela: don't talk like that your not like her

maya: how am I not like her she had like 4 baby daddy I don't even know who my real father is im gonna end up just like her

maricela; your not your birth giver because your not going to sell your kid for drugs or abandon them the moment there born either so don't speak like that your my daughter and your gonna get threw this like the strong women we raised you to be give me kevins last name

she said as they sat down at the table to eat

maya: you don't have to look him up he's from florencia they call him biggs he hasn't changed much

maricela; I don't care where he's from or what they call him ill have him out by tomorrow or this weekend they probably have him in on bullshit charges he needs to be free

viviana: you cant just free someone if they did something to break the law then they have to go to jail?

maricela: your sister is pregnant with her first baby she shouldn't have to do this alone yes she has us but she should have the person she loves also I know you want to be a cop but I can tell you now money talks babygirl

viviana: money doesn't talk because if it did then why do people still get locked up and arrested? why are pedophiles and people like that in jail?

maricela sat back and sighed and looked at maya

maya:it'll be ok its 6 months I think he'll be out before anything I was just scared to tell you guys I went back to him I know I needed to do better and I let you down

maricela: you didn't let me down you love who you love and I knew he would be back in your life I was waiting for somehting to happen but good luck with your dad and uncle

maya: I cant wait to hear it haha

sometime went by maricela stayed to help her plan things out for the baby..

viviana: we're not done talking

maricela: I'm all ears?

viviana: I don't understand how you think its ok to pay someones way out of jail when they committed a crime it shouldn't be like that?

maricela: do want me to speak the truth with you or walk around it you tell me because I don't know if your going to like what I have to say

viviana sat back

maricela; you choose babygirl I can talk to you like your mother and protect you from the world I work in or talk to you about how I see it and do things I gave your brother the choice also

viviana: I noticed I already know what way he took

maricela: what way? what does that mean?

viviana; he went to defend you and be at your side yesterday and I get it but huh nevermind its best if I don't know anything

maricela: he didn't go for me he went for you he right hooked chris so hard it was funny I couldn't stay serious and he got me to calm down because I wanted to strangle that old lady so badly

viviana looked down

maricela: I get it I'm the monster in this and a bad person but I see things differently and I respect you and your thoughts you can talk to me babygirl yell at me disagree with me but know ill be truthful and stand with what i do

viviana: stand with what you do even if its wrong mom?

maricela: do you think i chose this? do you think this is what i wanted for myself? i didn't get to choose my life i was used as a slave since i was 5 my mother beat me and hated me since the day i started having memories i brought home straight A's i did everything in the church i went out of my way to make my mother and father happy and i still failed them and disappointed them when i didn't do something wrong so at 15 when i met your sperm donor he showed what he did to make quick money so i could save a couple thousand to run away that's was my get away plan graduate run away and go to college

viviana: he

maricela: oo yea he was in the neighborhood he sold for tata he was low baller dealer selling dime bags to crackheads and homeless people i took over his route the men loved that a female was taking them there hits so he got me to push even more

viviana: wow..

maricela; and i went out on my own he never went with me physically i was attacked on my first day i stabbed her multiple times that was my first body i was 15 covered in bruises looking for a way out and i found something easy so i made the choice and stuck it out then once i got to good bigger cartels and bosses came looking for me and tata encouraged me to do it for the money so i did until i got kidnapped by my parents and shipped off to Mexico

viviana: it just feels like you keep telling me the same story