La Santa Muerte

What did i do?

maricela: telling you the samething how? what do you want me to tell you? what do you wanna hear haw?

viviana: don't talk to me like that either

maricela: viviana what do you want from me?

viviana: I want you to talk about him tell me who he was not what he did to you or how you ended up like this

maricela sat back and nodded

maricela: so you don't care? I've worked my ass off to give you the most perfect life with it all babygirl and you don't care?

viviana: I do care but its not something to brag about when you have to pay off cops to stay off the radar or when you carry how many dead souls on you? how many people have you killed? do you ever think about that?

maricela sat back and looked at her

maya: vivi you don't have to go this deep its not worth tripping over it?

viviana: I just wanna know if she has a soul freeing someone from prison like nothing?

maricela: your tata freed your sperm donor he was sentenced to a max 3 years he only did a year after he saw come out of that house blood stained

viviana sat back

maricela: I'm sorry I'm not the perfect mother you thought I was but no one on earth is perfect I am who I am and I gave birth to you I never meant to traumatize you or hurt you but all I can tell you is I don't regret one thing I don't I've never killed a innocent person everyone that has died by my hands deserved it including your sperm donor he wanted me dead it was self defense

viviana stared at her in shock as she got up

maricela: I also have no soul it was ripped away from me when my father molested me I was 9 I learned to love again because of you and your brother and your dad .. sorry I'm such a fuck up and just wanted to give you the life I never got

she grabbed her bag

viviana: so your gonna guilt trip me to come home an just get over this?

maricela: I'm not doing anything I'm speaking my truth your always welcome to come home I love you and ill always be your mother but what I'm not going to do is not be me or defend what I do and if you want to know there still alive you can call chris and his grandmother they are being watched they know what happens if they get out of hand again

viviana: what if I don't want to go home what if

maricela: its up to you ill support you till your 18 and then you can go on from there your grandfather left you and your brother a trust fund that'll put you threw college and life so that'll help you because I wont not if your gonna come at me like I'm the worst person on this earth

viviana: I never said you where

maricela: your making me feel like I am like I treated you the way my mother did or all the women around me ..I'm over this

she walked away viviana got up and followed her

viviana: your not allowed to leave me you have to

maricela turned angry viviana froze maya got in the middle

maya: mom

maricela: I'm not mad I'm hurt I am allowed to leave its pointless to stay here and just go back and fourth with you viviana I need my own time to

she left .. viviana stepped back maya turned to her

maya: vivi im not saying your wrong I get that your hurt and your just confused right now but what the fuck? what do you want her to say?

viviana: ofcourse you defend her

maya: im not saying your wrong I get it and I understand why your feeling the way you feel but you never suffered you never where hurt or left to die you've never had to struggle to survive I get what your feeling the life they work isn't a good one but you don't get what it took to get to where there at

viviana: and you do? your a nurse you

maya: remember my story remember where she found me i was pregnant by my pimp when she found me and took me in my birth giver had sold me off because she owed money hurt me in the worst ways i was in the system to and mom took me in and helped me because she knew the filling i wasn't 5 or 6 i was 14 vivi .. im just trying to tell you don't judge to hard if you don't understand that struggle ok

she nodded and stepped back

maya: I have to go to work for a bit and I have an appointment you can stay here I don't care my house is always open for you food is in the fridge I left leftovers on the stove if you want some

she nodded and watched maya leave .. she sat there alone

maricela: don't yell at me

giovani: I'm not fucking yelling that's our daughter maricela! shes young and she doesn't understand whats going on she was sheltered ofcourse shes going to have an opinion about this shit but you don't get to fucking treat her like that?

maricela: then how do I talk to her? because shes only coming at me not you or emiliano? what do you want me to say? that I'm sorry? beg her to forgive me when I've done it all so they live perfect fucking lives? she wasn't abused or hurt I've never not loved her I did what I had to but yet I'm the bad person here?

he stepped back

maricela: you can go talk to her I didn't kick her out or do anything all I said was ill support you until you decide to leave I told her she has the trust fund and that's that she doesn't get to judge my lifestyle and the way I make money if she need to live off of it

giovani: ill be back