La Santa Muerte

hope

gustavo: you cant just keep a baby

maricela: i can do whatever the hell i want i killed them in plain site during the fucking day in less than 24 hours

gustavo: you run tests and they say she ain't yours?

maricela: keep her and give her the best life she deserves

gustavo: this wont be an issue in the future?

maricela: i haven't failed you yet let me know when you have the next hit but make it harder please

he nodded and shook her hand

gustavo: i hope shes your daughter we'll be in contact

she nodded as he left

javier: so you weren't going to tell me or what?

adan: babe?

maricela: i couldn't talk about it in public but look at her adan please don't be mad at me .. the maths there

he unhooked the car seat and took her out and looked at her as she slept

maricela: doesn't it feel away like shes huh i don't know it might be me going crazy

adan: no i get what your saying

javier: look its early its been a lil crazy lets do a DNA test and get her settled .. whats her name?

maricela: that dumb bitch was calling her my mothers name and i hate that name so i wont repeat it i been calling her babygirl

adan: well what about esperanza

maricela: i like that hope in english

he nodded and side smiled

javier: lets rest a bit make some calls

they nodded and went there ways

maricela: im sorry i just dropped this on you

adan: at first i thought ok she really lost it but the more i look at her you can see it but even if she isnt ours you really wanna adopt her?

maricela: well yea .. would you wanna be her dad?

adan: how can i say no?

maricela: it isnt hard

adan: are you saying i would leave? are you kidding do you think that low of me?

maricela: no i dont but even if it comes up its her that lil girl they ripped away from me .. it wont change anything it cant .. do you get me?

adan: so you'll still leave to do these things then?

maricela: i would have to

adan: then you shouldve left her .. your doing the same your parents did to you

she froze and got angry

adan: look i didnt mean it that way ok

maricela: then what did you mean? .. i would never abuse her torment her or torture her i would never push her to kill me to be able to live .. ill do to her what my mother never did to me ..

adan: maricela look im sorry

maricela: im gonna love her care for her work my ass off for her .. she'll never feel scared she'll never fear me

adan: i know you'll be the best mother im sorry i came off wrong i didnt mean that but doing what your doing well what we do does bring danger and drama that i dont want for her

she sat down and took the babygirl

maricela: theres nothing we can do about it but we can protect her .. i signed my life away already but ill kill anyone for her even if shes not mine

she hugged her .. adan hugged her too .. disappointed

the day went by .. they set up an appointment

doctor: she wasnt neglected she looks about 5-6 months old and healthy would you wanna do a dna test?

maricela: yes please

they took a swab from them and waited for the results days later

javier: so how does it feel to be a mother?

maricela: im tired but its worth it shes very smart too haha she gots her ways

javier: yea .. well look they gave you somedays but you gotta get back to it

maricela: yea so whos next?

javier: are you ready to do this? you'll have to leave her?

maricela: it wont be for long if anything itll make me even quicker

they heard the doorbell ring she opened it and saw .. it was a special delivery

javier: are you going to open it?

maricela: not till her adan gets down so whos next?

javier: its ok lets talk about it later .. but you nervous?

maricela: ok just have them set it up or call me i dont care and i wanna be nervous but then no haha

javier: just take a deep breath everything will be ok

she nodded and went upstairs to a napping babygirl

adan got home later that night

adan: i have my small family to come home to now

she smiled as he kissed her .. he saw the envelope

adan: you havent opened it?

maricela: no i was waiting for you .. im nervous

adan: dont be come on

they sat down together

maricela: whatever it says shes our babygirl ok she has our last names already

adan: lets hope this lil girl is ours

with there hearts filled with hope they opened the results

adan: babe ..

maricela:what? what does it say?

he shook his head her heart broke .. the lil angel in her arms was not there daughter

she took a deep breath

maricela: its just a peice of paper it doesnt mean anything .. my love for her means more .. shes mine

he hugged them

adan: i feel the same way i love you both

she broke down crying

adan: babe please dont cry

maricela: how cant i .. i dont know if our lil girl is out there is she ok does she need anything is she healthy? is she safe? my love for this lil one wont change shes my daughter but my heart still aches adan

adan: i know we just have to stay positve send the results threw the system, maybe we can find her but we have to stay strong for our lil esperanza

he hugged them again and kissed both there heads

maricela sat down and watched her babygirl play with her toys in her arms

maricela: ill be the mama i never had for you chula i promise