The Last December

Chapter 18

                             I'm sorry Alex
Adeline
When i wakeup in the middle of the night i see a strong arm has been wrapped around my shoulders, my head's on his chest. He's holding me closely. He's sleepy so peacefully. And I'm letting him to do so. I let him sleep in my damn room. I let him hold me. But at this point i just wanted someone to hold me close. Because i've been numb for so long. I've been holding onto the past for so long. Memories don't fade. It keeps hurting me, making me suffer every single day. Falling for his soul was my biggest crime. And i'm paying for that sin for too long now.
Alex's gone for good and i need to accept the fact. Or maybe i can accept and move on only when I finally decide that i have to. Its all in my head and I'm not able to take it out. And now ive thought so much, that now i need myself to sleep, so i close my eyes again and lie on his chest for the night.

"GoodMorning Adeline" my eyes fall open when i see Ali opening the curtain. The sunshine falls directly on me. And then all of sudden I realise that i slept all night with me on this very bed.
I feel a little embarrassed after tonight as i've been building a wall between us from months and i just let it loose last night.
I look up at him and finally i get the guts to speak so i wish him back "morning Ali"
He smiles and then he comes and sits next to me. He slides a strand of hair.

"So gorgeous" he says and I instantly blush.
I like affirmation. I like praising and i love when he does that.
"Thank you" i say back.
"Come on, get ready, its already 12:00 pm, i want to take you on lunch" he says that and then he gets up and leaves from my room.

I stand infront of the mirror and wonder what should i wear. He asked for a lunch date, ahh wait is that even a date, no he did not mention that, he just said lunch, yea yea, i need to dress casual.
So i wear a Ysl shirt in black colour and dark blue jeans.  Gold chains around my neck and some rings. I take my newest Chanel bag. And i put on some Gucci heels, which are in blue colour.
And then i rush out of my room.
I see Ali standing in the lobby, he waves at me.
"Hey" i say.
"Hii, amm you looking beautiful" he says.
I smile. "Thanks"
A sudden thought rushes to my mind is that, i haven't even talked like this to ali for months, i've been cold to him, till last night. But now I'm acting like before, what if he gets the wrong idea? But my heart isn't wanting to play bad. I want to be normal with him. I want atleast one person in my life at this moment to be just with me and make me feel good, so i might give him that chance.

We reach at the hotel, have our food and then he  takes me to the mall for some shopping.
"Addie i have to take this important call, i'll come you see here okay" i nod.
He goes out of the store to talk, and i look around the store.
I take a dress and take it to the billing station when i bump into a large body. My dress falls on the ground, "hey can't you see i'm walki__" my eyes snap open when i look up and see who i bumped into. Those same eyes. That tall body, that handsome face, that long hair which falls all over his face. His gaze pierce my heart out. Its him. Its Alex fucking watson. Standing right infront of me, looking at me as if he can't believe who's he is seeing and obviously he can't believe that i'm alive. "Who are you" his voice, his voice i've been dying to hear. "Alex"
"Shut the fuck up" his strong hands grabs my arm so tight that it fucking hurts.
"Tell me who the fuck are you" he screams.
Tears starts to fall out of my eyes. I've never felt this weak in my life. His hold on me hurts. His nails are digging into my skin. His eyes are full of anger.
"Why don't you say anything" he screams.
"Alex let me explai__" suddenly his hold on me is gone and he pushed back, he falls on the ground.
"Touch her again you bastard and i will fucking cut your hands". My husband says.
Wow, i mean right now I can't even believe what the fuck is happening.
"What's happening." The store owner appears.
"This guy was harassing my wife" ali barks.
Alex looks at us in total shock, he's gotten numb, he's not even moving.
"Guards take him out" the owner says.
The guards come and they start alex getting him up on his feet. His eyes are fixed at me.
I'm froze at my place.
"Blue, are you fine" Ali asks me, but my eyes doesn't leave alex and neither his.
Then i get myself to speak up "i'm sorry Alex" i say. My tears start to fall out.
"Dont you fucking say a word" alex says.
"Can we please talk outside" ali interrupts.
I'm certainly not ready for this conversation.
But we do as Ali says and we walk out of the store. We find a food outlet nearby and then we sit me and ali together and alex sit on the other side of the table . I can see him shaking.
I can feel the blood rushing in my veins too.
It feels so wrong.
How did i end up meeting him again.
Am i still gonna pay the price of falling in love?