The Last December

Chapter 40

          A piece of us taken away.
Ali
Self harming has never been my way of getting through life. But here i stand right in front of the broken mirror of the hospital. Blood drip from my knuckles as i punch my hand in the mirror and it break into pieces.
No matter how many times i hurt myself, i will never be able to forgive myself for what happened. Its my fault. I pushed her to the edge that she fought me and left me. I should have gone behind her, but i stood there like a fool.
And now i stand here. As she's lying on that god damn hospital bed. Our child. Tears slip from my eyes. How am i supposed to face her, and tell her, its gone. A piece of us has been taken away. And its all my fault. I couldn't protect her. Our baby.
When mikael called me and said he's taking her to hospital and told me what happened. I nearly lost my shit. My knees loosened up and I literally fell down. I didn't even know how to get up and run to hospital. My dad came. He drove us here. When i saw mikael's face, he looked at me with pity and I knew what we lost.
I'm going to kill those men, i'm going to take my time and skin them alive. I have killed once and i will do it again. I'll avenge for my child, for my wife. They won't get away with it. I don't know who's hell bent on killing us. But i will find them out and once i do. All hell will break loose.
I don't even have the words to explain how my heart is wrecking. What pain i feel inside. I thought our life will be filled with happiness once our baby will born. Adeline will find reason to live. I will exist with them. But everything has come to end. And i'm so helpless.
"She's woken up brother" mikael stands at the entrance of bathroom. I look at him. He comes close and then hug me.
I've never been this vulnerable in front of him, but i hug him and let my heart out. I weep in his arms.
He pats my back.
"Its fine. You have to be strong. She needs you." He says. I nod as i know i have to be strong for her.
"And you might wanna wipe that blood off" i look at my bleeding hand.
I wash them and then we leave to meet Adeline.

Adeline
My eyes open slowly, my vision still blur, i can hear voices, it's uncle zayn and mikael talking. I life my hand up and touch my head as i feel freezy.
"Adeline!!" Mikael says.
"Doctor. She's up" uncle speaks next to him.
I don't even understand whats happening. All i feel is dizzy and lost and incomplete, my head hurts so is my entire body. I slowly recall what happened, memories fill in.
"Addie" his voice, i know it's him. My eyes open fully and i see him. He holds my face in both of his palm. Ma luna. Its like the first time i wokeup from my coma and he was there. Shining brighter, only now he looks dull as ghost. He's hair is in a mess. His shirts disheveled. I can see tears in his eyes. He never shows emotion. He never atleast do it in front of other.
"What happened" i manage to say.
The doctors check me, and they talk to uncle while ali holds me. He helps me in sitting.
His face saddened. So sad.
"Adeline. I'm so sorry we- ah" its enough for me to understand what has happened. "Don't speak" i say. And i bury my face in his chest.
A place i find solace in.
"Its all my fault. I shouldn't have gone" i say as i cry out.
"It's not your fault, if you want to blame someone blame me. It's my mistake i did it. I'm so sorry Adeline. I did it. I should have been there for you. But don't you worry, we'll be alright ha? And those guys, i'll burn them alive" he says and i remember. Where's Malakai? Where are those men. Did they die? Or they ran. Does Ali know about Kai.?
I pull out of his arms and i look at him. His hand. Blood.
I take his hand in mine. "It's nothing" he says.
"Addie, can you tell me what happened? Who was that big guy? Did you know him?" Big guy? Its kai he's talking about. I'm about to speak but i see Mikael. He shakes his head and actions ne to not tell him about kai.
"No I don't. Please i don't want to talk about it" i say.
"Its fine. You rest. I'll come back okay baby. Anything up? Call me okay?" He kisses on my forehead and then he leaves.
I feel so empty. Incomplete. Void.
I put a hand on my tummy. I don't feel it. Tears slips out of my eyes as i remember my loss.
"Kai got one of the men" mikael says. What? How does he know about it. I look at him in shock.
"Yes i know. If you are wondering that. Thanks to you. Sansa and i can be open about our relationship. But she told me about your pact with Cedric. I know kai was protecting you. He killed two of them and one was running away. He managed to catch him. While i got you here. I followed you after you left from home and i'm glad i did. But Ali doesn't know anything. I told him when i got there you were already hurt. I didn't have the time to think anything. He's seen the CCTV footage. He's seen kai helping you but obviously he thinks kai just came to help you when he saw those men as it looks exactly like that in the footage." He finishes his sentence.
I nod as i have nothing to say. I'm so hurt and lost that i don't want to talk about anything.
"Ali. He's going to wage a war" mikael says again as his eyebrows tenses. I look at him. I know Ali won't let this go.
"He will find out soon. Its better you tell him you have a deal with cedric he can help us find out who actually is the killer" mikael says.
"I need to see that guy" i say.
"He's in the basement at Cedric mansion. We can visit once you feel better" i nod.
Mikael keeps staring at me. His eyes softened. He looks alot like dad now. Only if dad were alive to his son coming to an escape for his daughter, he would have been so happy.
"Don't look at me like you pity me Mika" i say.
"I'm just looking at my sister who lost her child. I'm grieving as well." He says. Wait. What did he just say? Sister? My eyes widen in shock.
He laughs. And then he comes close and sit next to me. He holds my hand. "I know. I have always known sissy" he smiles. Tears start falling out of my eyes. I lost my baby. But atleast i got my brother.
"Hey hey I didn't mean to make you cry" he stands up and hugs me.
"How ? How did you know?" I ask.
" before mum died. There was one time i was passing through her room. I heard them. Zayn and my mom were arguing and in that argument he said that i'm Remi's bastard not zayn's son" he fakes a smile.
"You have known since then?" I question him. I'm shocked he kept something like that with him for so long.
"Yeah. And I thought nobody will ever know. But i found out when sansa told me what you said to his father. How did you find out though?" He asks.
"Dad wrote me a letter. He loved you Mikael"
He smiles and then "not enough to actually claim me as his son" his permanent smile never leaves. Thats the aura of him. He's hurt but he always shine. I touch his face. And then i land a kiss on his forehead.
"Im sorry for your loss addie" he says.
"Atleast i got you" i say as i smile.
"I'll help you avenge this." He keeps his hand on my tummy.
I nod.