The Last December

Chapter 34

A secret lies beneath a book
Adeline
Few weeks later
How my world shattered a month ago, or i wished it could have been a dream. A nightmare i'm not able to escape. That day when i saw the dead bodies of my parents. I lost my mind. I didn't even know if i was alive or dead for few weeks. And I didn't understand how much pain i had to suffer in this life time. Ive lost everything i loved. My identity, my old life, my friends, alex and now my parents. But in all of the losts, losing my parents were the biggest. I don't even know how am i gonna survive further. And i feel guilty of hating my father. There were times when i hated him. I hated him for sending me london and faking my death, i hated him for me making me marry ali. But all he did was to secure me. His entire business properties everything he left for me. All the reputation he gained over the years is left for me, but what am i even supposed to do with these materialistic things when my parents aren't alive. Only if i had known that night was the last time i was meeting my parents i would have stayed a bit longer. A guilt i will die with and now the only thing that is keeping me alive is the life i'm growing inside me.
After begging Ali a millionth time, he allows me to step out of the house and go to my parents home. Ive been wanting to come since their death but he didn't let me. But i assured him i'm fine so he dropped me home , asked to come along but i denied him. I just wanted to spend some alone time.
As i walk in, the house. Memories fills my mind. How i came here that day when my parents died. How i saw their dead bodies. Tears fall over my eyes.
Everything is same like before. Almost dusty. I guess nobody went to clean the house. I walk through my parents room. Pick up the pictures we had. I smile as i look them. I go through my mom's stuff. All her vintage bags, her dresses everything feels like her. I take the clothes in my arms stuck them to my chest feel her warmth as i close my eyes.
Then i walk into my dad'a study.
I sit on his chair. His glasses lying on the table next to his laptop. I pick it up and wear it. When i look my self i see a vision of him.
Then i go through his stuff. His files and some other shit.
I go through his book shelves where lies multiple books.
When i pick his favourite book, i go through it and thats when a page drops for the book.
I pick it up.
Its a letter. Which says "To My daughter, i hope you will forgive me"
I read the letter. Tears fall out of my eyes. As i inhale the news that my dad meant to give me.
He might have left something for me to protect.
I keep my hand on my stomach.
"Your nana gave me another reason to live" i say to my child.
And then i storm out of the house and call
Eren.
"Hello" he says.
"I need you to find something for me"
"What is it" he asks
"Sansa Cedric, find who she is"
And then i leave my house and wait for ali to pick me up.