The Last December

Chapter 20

Somethings never change.
Adeline
It feels like i'm losing my fucking mind. Everything around me feels so wrong, so very wrong. The moment Alex left from the restaurant. I watched the love of my life to walk away. I could do nothing but let him walk away. Let him go to his life. To his wife and daughter. I'm still on my seat. Ali holds my hand but it feels so wrong. I want to be alone. I want to fucking disappear. I stand up from my seat, i leave my hand from Ali's grip and run towards our car. "addie stop" ali screams and follows me behind. Once i'm out of the restaurant. I run on the streets. I want to fucking run away from Ali. Right now i can't be with him. So i run as fast as i can. It looks so funny that I'm running in the middle of New York streets. I don't even see back if he's following me or not. I'm running like a madwoman. Tears falling down from my eyes. My chest feeling so heavy. I almost gasp for the air. And the moment i slow down, a strong hand grips my elbow and in one second i'm turned around and under his arms. He's pulled me close to his chest. His hug is warm. Its strong. I don't even wanna admit the fact i wanted someone to hug me like Ali's doin. But at the same time i wanted to run away. "You scared the fucking shit out of me!!" Ali snaps.
And then he pulls me out his hug, he holds both of my arms and look me in the eyes. "Do you have any idea what you were doing? By running on the streets. Do you not care about your life Adeline Caspher!" He didnt call me by his last name. And now I have nothing to say. He wipes my tears.
"Take me home" i say.
"Yes Darling, we'll leave by tonight. The jet is preparing" and then he takes me back to the hotel.
The moment we reach towards our room , i enter inside and lock my door, knocking ali out of my space.
I enter my bathroom, i look myself in the mirror, my hair is a mess. My face looks so horrible after crying so much. My world has come to an end.
He was my world. alex was my everything and now he's gone. Not that I didn't know he was gone. I just didn't accepted that fact, but now that i saw it. Saw it from my own eyes. I can't ignore it. I can't let it go like nothing happened. I saw the love of my life after twelve years and how can one expect me to be fine as if it doesn't matter. I change into a bathrobe. And walk out of my room. I grab a glass of water to drink but it falls from my hand before i can drink it. The cracking of glass echoes in my ears. I'm so lost I don't even feel what i'm doing when i take the piece of glass and press it between my palms. Blood runs out of my palms. I look at them. Blood. Blood has always been a way of releasing the anger out of my system. And its happening. Both of my palms bleed and I don't even bother stopping it because i made it happen. I just sit on my bed and let the tears and blood fall out. I guess something never changes.

Ali
Adeline is a mess right now. She needs me. She needs me the most. But she shut me out the moment we reached the hotel. She wants to be alone. But its not good for her to be alone after how i saw her reacting. She fucking ran . Anything could have happened. She was running like she didn't care about a car hitting her. She didn't care about anything. She was lost. She is still lost. She's out of zone and i have to do something to bring her back. Its been 2 hours since we got back. And i haven't sat for a minute in peace. I want to go in her room. But at the same time i know she won't open so i'm sparing her some time.
Blue tulips arrive in half hour. I take it from the staff and then move to Addie's room. We have 2 hours to leave.
I ring the bell of her room. I have the card to access her room but i don't want to barge when i know she will not react in her rebellious way instead she will feel like I'm disturbing her privacy so instead i give her a chance of opening up to me or closing me out.
The door opens and i see those beautiful eyes looking so dead, so haunted. She's in a total mess. She looks at me and then she forwards her right hand and touches the tulips i have in my hand. "Blue tulips" she says so slowly and thats when i notice blood. So much blood. Her palms are bloodied. The tulips falls from hands and i take both of her palms in my hand. She looks down and speak nothing. "What the fuck have you done Adeline!!!" I scream. Its definitely not the time to be angry at her when's so vulnerable but I can't help it. She says nothing. She keeps looking down. "Get inside" i order.
She walks inside and i enter too and close the door. She sits on the bed. I walk towards her and then kneels infront of her. It's her. Its only Adeline who's got the power of bringing me onto my knees. And i would do it for a million times. I would die for her. I would gladly kill for her.
The blood on her hands are almost dried that means it happened hours ago.
"Why did you do it" i lower my voice.
"I don't know" she replies.
She's never been like this in so many years. She was doing so fine. The last time i saw her this vulnerable was when we had sex. That time too the reason was alex and even this time.
"I hate that motherfucker" i admit. Still looking at her hand and holding them.
She looks down at me her eyes widening.
"Why do you hate him" she asks.
I run my fingers through her scar gently.
"Because he makes you bleed" i say.
"No he doesn't" she defends.
"It is the truth. You always bleed bcoz of him. First time you bled for him was when you encountered James. Second time you bled a pool. When you took a shot. And now you are making your beautiful hands bleed bcoz of him. I can't see you like this" i admit. Slowly she removed her right hand from my grip and she does something i never thought she would. She touches me. She puts her right hand on my cheeks. She holds my face. "You are not like this with everyone else Ali." She says. My eyes narrow as I didn't understand what she meant.
"What do you mean Adeline" i say.
This very moment i want to freeze the time. Im kneeling infront of her. My hands is on her lap holding her hand and her other hand holding my cheeks and rubbing slowly. She looking down at me and her dead eyes are now slowly shining. I'm looking at her. The monster inside me dies in front of her.
"You. You are softer with me. You talk so much infront of me whilst with others you barely speak. Why are you like this" she asks.
"Because you are my wife" i reply. "And you are my best friend. The only light that shines in my darkness" i admit.
And then she leans down and kiss my forehead.
"I want to go home and never come back"
"Yes we won't come back. But before we go i want you to meet someone" i say.
"Who" she says.
"Anastasia"
Her eyes widens and she stands up in excitement. A bright smile covers her face.
"Are you serious" she asks. Her eyes shines.
"Yes im damn serious. I would have never done that as uncle caspher restricted me to do so. But now that you have already met asher and alex its absurd to keep you away from your only best friend. She must be coming. We have got two hour still i hope you will have good time" i finish and she jumps at me. And when i say jump. She literally jumped and hugs me. Her legs wrap around my waist and her arms around my neck. She buries her head in my neck. My heart stops.
I want to keep her like this forever.
"Thank you so much" she says and then she pulls out of hug. And then i do her first aid. And make her ready to meet her friends.
After sometime Ana arrives they both hug and cries for so long. And then we leave for our flight.
"I never want to come back" adeline admits as she settles on her seat.
" we wont. I promise. Now go to sleep"
She rests her head on the window side and watch as we take off.
And i watch her.
She's the reason of my existence and i will do everything in my power to keep this woman safe.
I will burn down the world for her.