The Last December

Chapter 19

                       Adeline is alive
Alex
Twelve fucking years. For twelve fucking years I mourned her death. I grieved. I blamed myself for being the reason of her death. I didn't move on for ten years until i met Abigail. And now i see her right infront of me. Her creamy skin, her big black eyes, those gorgeous lashes, that beautiful face, everything is same, except for her hairs, those are blue. And i'm sure now i saw her in the park that day when we were in london. But i thought i was delusional like every other time, i thought i imagined her. My heart beats are racing faster than ever. I can't believe she's alive, Adeline is alive. I'm seeing her and her husband? Really she did end up getting married to Ali. I still remember how he beat me up when he was taking adeline to the hospital and then he never let me come near her until her funeral. Even then they didn't let me see her. I did as they said because i blamed myself. And it was because of me she was shot, but how did she, how is she even alive.
It hurts so much in my heart. I can't even express my feelings, hell alone I can't even decide what i'm feeling. Am i happy seeing her alive or am i angry as fuck from her betrayal.
All this questions must end. We move out of the mall and get to the nearest restaurant. When we reach to the table. Ali pulls the chair out of her and she smiles at him. I watch them.
We get settled. "Alex there's alot to say" she says.
Her voice. I missed it so much. Her eyes are full of tears. And thats when her husband wipes her tears. She looks at him. Her eyes widen as if she's shocked by his gesture. He circles his arm around her shoulder and rub her arms.
"Look its not Adeline's fault" he speaks. Hes still so arrogant.
"Then who's fault it is. How are you even Alive adeline" i look at her ignoring her husband.
"I was in Coma for 6 years"
"Yea i took her london. We faked her death. Because of the murders she had on her hand. She was in coma, we didn't even know if she'd make it alive. After she woke up she lost her memories. So if you wonder why she never contacted you. Because she didn't remember you for years untill recently" ali says.
So she was alive. All this time. I missed her, I mourned her and she was alive.  Should i hate her for this.? Or maybe im the reason she had to be in that place.
"It's because of you Alex. She had to go through all of this. For six years we felt every single day that she might die. It was a miracle she woke up"
Ali says. Adeline put her hand on his hand on the table. And she rubs his fingers, they both look at each other. Its like they both can communicate through eyes. She nods her head. And he looks at her.
"I know because of me you would have suffered alot but I couldn't do anything"
"You could have atleast come to me when you got your memories back" i say.
" you were married" she says.
"Aren't you too" i say. I feel pathetic. I'm married, she's right. I love Abigail. I have my own daughter how do i even expect her to come see me when she knew all this.
"I'm but," she takes a pause "we got married 6 months ago" she completes. "And she got her memories just before that" ali says.
He defends her like his life is dependent on it.
I can see that warmth in his eyes for her.
He loves her.
He loves her like i did once.
I can't even blame adeline at this point. She's the reason i'm alive and she must have lost
so much.
She lost six years of her life.
"Im sorry for lashing out at you. I just got panicked and lost my mind when i saw you"
"You should be sorry. Don't even touch my wife again" ali says. Adeline looks at him again as if she's Surprised  by his words.
"Its all right Alex. I would have reacted worse if i were you"
"So now what" i say. My heart breaks. I will have to let her go.
"We are going back london tonight." She says.
"Oh" i say and then I think of everyone else who thought she died. "Maybe you should meet everyone before goin back" i complete.
"She can't" ali speaks again for her.
"She can speak for her self" i say. Im as pissed as he is.
"But im her guardian and I decide".
"Come on guys stop." Adeline says.
She's calm. Yet she still has that fire inside her.
Her blue hairs look prettier than ever.
"Alex, you shouldn't have written that book" she says. Yes my first book. I did write and she read it. She reads my books.
"Why Adeline" i ask.
"Because I didn't like how my life was up front to everyone" she says. She's right but i never thought she existed. She was delusional to me.
"I changed the names addie, nobody knows its bout us" i called her addie. After so long i called her that.
" i know but anyways forget it" she says. And Ali looks at her.
"Only if you would have showed up a little before things would have been different" i say. And I regret instantly because its unfair to my wife. She loves me. Abigail was the hardest to love, but i loved her in every situation. News flash my wife isn't a serial killer anymore.
"You were never meant to be mine, Alex.
We met, we fell apart. We always came too close to getting together but we never aligned. Sometimes misunderstanding, ego, self respect broke us and the other time it even took death to keep us apart.You were the rain, i was the fire. And we could never function with each other. "
She's right. We were never meant to be together or else we would have.
I get up from the table because the conversation is over and i have nothing to say anymore.
"Good bye Addie" i smile at her
I say with a heavy heart.
"Goodbye to you too Alex. And yeah. Say hi to abigail and adeline"
She smiles back.
And then i leave them.
It feels like my heart will pop out and everything will be blast.
It was so fucking hard to even breathe in the same air as her. She moved on. Fuck that. She deserved it.
Adeline was always too good for me and she always deserved a man like ali.
I reach my home. The moment i enter my house. My adeline walks up to me. "Daddy is home mommy"
Abigail comes out as well.
I pick adeline in my arms and hug abigail.
"I love you both"
Abi smiles and says.
"We love you too Alex"
This is it.
This is my world.
A world which is includes my wife and my daughter.
The reality not the delusion.