Chasing Series 5: Tying Childish Love

Kabanata 5

Kabanata 5

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Nahiga ako sa kama niya habang nasa bathroom pa siya at naglilinis ng katawan. I was busy watching videos on my social media when his phone rang. Napatingin agad ako sa kanyang phone. Nasa tabi ng side table iyon, kunot ang noo na kinuha at tinignan ang pumasok na text sa kanya.

Cara:

Hey, Zy? How are you? I miss our hang out.

Napatitig ako sa screen ng kanyang phone. Cara is the name of the girl. She said, she miss Gavriel. And she even used Gavriel's first name. Who's this? How is she related to Gavriel? Is she a girlfriend?

Hindi pa rin lumalabas si Gavriel kaya tinignan ko ang mga text nilang dalawa.

Gavriel:

Are you done with the background study?

Cara:

Yes. Would you like to review it at my dorm?

Gavriel:

Just send it via email. I'm busy.

Last year na conversation nila 'yon. So, this girl is trying to hit my Gavriel? She tried to tangled Gavriel at her bed? Para ano? Para may mangyari sa kanilang dalawa. I read more of their convo!

Gavriel:

I'm sorry for the kiss. I was drunk. It was unintentional.

Cara:

That's fine. I enjoyed your kisses last night. Hope it works better in my bed?

Gavriel:

We're friends and I respect you. Again, sorry for the kiss.

Iyon ang huling text nila after Christmas. My heart is aching right now. He kissed this girl because he was drunk. Saan sila naghalikan? Sa bar ba? Dito sa dorm niya? Sa dorm ba ni Cara? Saan? Kaya ba hindi niya umuuwi kasi may Cara naman pala dito? Iyon ang rason ni Gavriel? Kaya ba hirap siyang umuwi sa Pilipinas?

My stupid tears flooded again. Mabilis kong pinahid dahil bumukas ang pinto ng banyo. Nilapag ko ang kanyang phone sa side table at tumayo upang lumabas muna. I feel so fucking betrayed!

"Where are you going?" he asked me.

Hindi ko siya nilingon. Pinihit ko pabukas ang pinto tsaka sumagot.

"Just calm myself." iyon ang sagot ko.

Hindi ko na narinig ang sagot niya dahil lumabas na ako. Dumiretso ako sa kusina upang uminom ng malamig na tubig. I'm really affected. Reading those texts makes me weak. May ganoon palang nangyayari dito. For sure, hindi lang nagawang i-text ni Gavriel pero sa personal, they are doing more than just a kiss!

Girls like Cara, living here in America, no wonder, they did something bad. I concluded. Iyon naman talaga ang mangyayari kapag malayo ang lalaki sayo. They will fall under the thirst of lust. They will touch other women to please their lust. At the end, sino ang kawawa? Yung babaeng umaasa na uuwi silang walang ginawang kalokohan.

Reality hurts. Reality bad. As a lesson I learned from my teacher, smile even when it's hurting. I dry my tears and smile at myself.

"Tañia..." I heard his voice.

Mabilis kong binalik ang pitcher sa ref at baso sa cupboard. Lumabas ako ng kusina at dumiretso sa sofa. I open the TV to bore myself only.

"What's wrong?" he asked sincerely.

Hindi ko siya pinansin at nakatitig lang ako sa TV. I'm currently watching Reputation Stadium Tour by Taylor Swift. She's currently doing her Eras Tour, I might get a ticket to watch the concert too?

"Tañia, come on, what's upsetting you?" he asked again.

Still, deaf and blinded by the Taylor Reputation movie. Buti nalang at fan ako ng blonde girl na 'to! Well, I guess, I'll book a ticket for her current concert today.

"I'm talking to you, Catañia! Stop ignoring me!" he said frustratedly.

Ignore and continue watching. Hindi ko pa rin siya pinansin. Ngayon, Taylor was singing her revenge song Look What You Made Me Do. Tumayo ako at kinuha ang remote upang gawing mic. I'm doing her moves and stage present right now. Gavriel was just mesmerized and amazed because of my craziness doing Taylor Swift stunt.

"Ohh, Look What You Made Me Do, look what you made me do." I sang like her.

While starting to like the moves and her stunt, Gavriel then off the TV. Mabilis akong bumaling sa kanya na galit at umuusok sa ginawa niyang paglabag sa ginagawa ko.

"Why did you off the TV?! Open fucking it!" I shouted.

Umigting ang kanyang panga.

"You shout at me like that and I fucking punish you like hell, Catañia!" he fireback.

Lumapit ako sa kanya na umuusok sa galit at selos. Agad kong pinaghahampas ang kanyang dibdib sa nararamdamang galit at frustration. Hindi pa ako nakuntento at nasampal ko pa siya sa mukha. Now, my tears escape like fucking rat!

"You fucking asshole! You are a dirty man! You betray me! Fuck you!" I gritted my teeth in anger.

Hinawakan niya ang dalawang kamay ko habang kitang-kita niya ang luha sa mata kong walang tigil sa pagtulo.

"Ano! You fucked that bitch!? You scumbag idiot dirty man fucking a bitch--"

I was not able to finish my sentence when he claimed my lips angrily. He bit my lip and tongue pouring all his frustration and anger over our fight. Hindi pa siya tumigil at sinakal ang leeg ko habang patuloy na pinaparusahan ang labi ko. With his madness looks, cold eyes and deadly jawline, I was at his feet, slave by his ruthless kisses.

When he's done punishing my lips, humiwalay siya at parehong may dugo ang labi namin. He was mad. Igting na igting ang panga.

"That's your punishment for saying bad words. And who are you referring to as a bitch I fucked huh?" he said madly.

Napalunok ako. Hindi ako nakasagot dahil nagulat ako sa kanyang halik na ginawa. It was my first kiss and heck, he kissed me angrily and madly.

"I didn't fuck a girl here, for your information, Catañia! How can I do that huh? I'm busy studying here and you're accusing me of doing the things I set aside!" he explained.

Nanubig ang mata ko sa sobrang hirap na nararamdaman. Mabilis na lumambot ang mukha niya. Seeing the ruthless side of him makes me bleed to scare. It was a different side of Gavriel. Nakakatakot.

"I'm asking you what's upsetting you but you just dance and sing like you didn't hear me." aniya sa kalmadong boses na.

Mabilis niyang pinahid ang luha na lumandas sa mata ko. Nanghihina ako.

"Let's talk in my bed."

A.A | Alexxtott