i forgive you

i can't love you

how beautiful you are

your short fluffy hair

and grey-blue eyes

and I knew my expectations were high

it's been a while since i've felt like this

it's no new thing that I want to kiss

and have sex,

sorrow and regrets

it's been alright like that,

or so I thought

in my heart, it's getting hot

I can't let it be like that

i suppose it can be hard to understand 

but you'll have to wait to hold my hand

here goes the curse of feeling too much

oh, how I will crave your touch

I've been holding it all in

slowly, I'm caving in

trust me, it's not what I want

but the head wants what it wants

so emotional

kinda critical

I wish I could forget you to make it all stop

but hell, I can't control my thoughts 

I'm just hoping that time will heal

fuck, I don't even want to feel

secretly, I'm hoping for a miracle

aren't they supposed to be possible?

hurt me

talk shit about me

kiss me 

make love to me

damn, we would've been so good together

I wish I could've been better

i imagine you knocking on my door with flowers

and me taking you to dance under the rain, or in the shower 

at least, 

I'll try to make you a promise

please, wait for me 

and we could be eternity, when I'm me.