Hating Her

Chapter-32

Adhvik's pov

It's been a few weeks since orange woke up, 52 days to be precise. I tried everything to get her to listen to me, but she was not ready to talk to me.

I haven't seen her ever since the dinner that day, but i do ask Naina about her health often since she asked me not to talk to her.

I send her flowers along with a letter every day. I don't know if she ever reads it or not, but i think she does. She never showed up at the restaurant, but i thought i saw her yesterday. Maybe i just imagined her, but at that moment, i felt like i won the world.

I am again sitting at the restaurant waiting for her, hoping she'd show up. It started pouring heavily soon after. No, Adhvik. Don't think about it. Orange is okay. Don't. Just breathe in, breath out.

I tried to take deep breaths, and my body started shivering, with my breaths getting heavier. Soon, i realized Orange was there, and she comforted me. She was here. She came to talk to me!!!

She called me Adhu. I never knew i needed to hear it from her so badly. It enlightened a hope in my heart that everything would be alright.

We decided to go to her office to talk. I used to love rain so much but now i can't even stand rainy weather.

Orange was driving the car, and i was sitting on the passenger seat  trying to focus on my girl instead of rain. She constantly gave reassuring squeeze to my hand and my heart skipped a beat.

We entered her cabin and orange handed me a glass of water. I wasn't even thirsty but i don't want to piss her off so i just drank it.

"Why did you do this?" She asked, looking at me holding my wrist in front of me. If looks could kill, I'd be six feet under!

"I.... i know it was wrong. Trust me, i didn't want to, but in that one weak moment, it felt as if this was the only solution." I said in a tone, barely audible.

"Weak moment!" She said, chuckling humorlessly.

"Weak moment! Tumhare ek weak moment ke chakkar mai jaan nikal gayi thi meri!! Leave me, what about your mother? Or your siblings? Or your friend?" She yelled as tears fell down her eyes.

"I know what i did was very wrong and there... there's no explanation to it." I said more like mumbled.

"Stop it, okay! Just stop it!! I told you to talk to me once but you... you said you'd talk to me tomorrow and then... and then you... you just..." She said in between her sobs, and without thinking anything else, i wrapped my hands around her waist and engulfed her into a hug.

"Why?... Why didn't you just talk to me once...? Itni nafrat. Arre nafrat to sirf mujhse thi na sabko saza kyu di!!" She said as she continued sobbing, clutching onto my shirt.
(This much hatred!)
(You hated me, na! Then why did you punish everyone?)

"Aap se nafrat krne ke liye pehle mujhe khudse nafrat krni padegi orange. Bahut koshish ki maine pr sach to yeh hai ki mai kabhi nafrat kr hi nahi paya aapse. Nafrat to dur ki baat hai mai to aapse pyaar krna bhi nahi chod paya." I said, gulping the lump formed in my throat.

(For hating you, I'd have to hate myself first orange. I tried really hard to hate you, but the truth is that i couldn't get myself to hate you. Forget  about hate i couldn't even stop loving you.)

"I am sorry. I know that sorry is too little for what i did, but trust me, i am ready to do anything for you.... for us." I said, patting her head, and she faced me without breaking the hug.

"I hate you.... I hate you..... I hate you so much!!! Just stay away from me!!... I can't even tell you how it felt when i saw you in that condition." She said as more tears escaped her eyes as she wrapped her hands around my torso.